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Sunday, January 31, 2010

One night a man had a dream.He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,one belonged to him,and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand.He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was onnly one set of footprints.He also noticed that it happen at the very lowest and saddest time in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it,and he said,Lord you said that once i decided to follow you,you'd walk with me all the way.But i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.I don't understand why when i needed you the most you would leave me...

The Lord replied,My precious,precious child,I love you and i would never leave you.During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footrints,it was then that i carried you...

A very nice story that i just thought of sharing...=D

BeeVee blogged at 6:00 AM

Strumming away my thoughts and feelings
The rhytm of my heartbeat...

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Woah~! It has already been 16 days and 15 nights since John and Choon Kai had set foot here in the Big Jb~! These past days and nights had been awesome~! Before they arrived here,i don't know why but i already had a hunch that both of them were going to come...A hunch,and well guess what? It really came true~! Their a awesome bunch of youth i might say....

I remembered on the first day,there was a very quiet,weird feeling in the air...But,to good thing is,after that,well we became friends already... Even before they came,i already said to myself,i have to be a part of this years YMI in one way or another cause i'm suppose to be in this badge because of my age and i want to~1,And well i took any chance i could to join them...(Maybe except Shalom kids lah,but ya besides that most of everything,=D)

It was really great getting to know them...It felt like,i had brothers with me haha...Sleeping in the same room with them,waking up with them,eating with them etc... Although sometimes there are moments of complete silence but well,to be its like a break from being alone most of the time because i'm a only child...And to be honest,it really felt great not sleeping,doing stuff or eating alone...It felt nice...

Moreover,during the 2 weeks they were here,i basically didn't do my homework at home,only abit...Doing it in school isn't nice at all,i guess that is why they call it HOME WORK...Why? Haha,join them lolz... =D

And no,i did not cry nor wept...And no,i am not emo'ing now, =.=lll ,just feel glad and happy to be able to experience and go through this year YMI with them...Glad and honoured...Although it was only part time but,hey my time will come,and when it does,Ho Ho Ho...

Well,one thing i've learnt is being able to bath in cold water whether it is in the morning,afternoon or at night...Yup,i usualy bath with the heater on,ehem ehem,but just now when i bath with hot water,it seriously felt very weird and thus i change it back to cold water...Well,although this may seem small but to me,its something.And quite a couple more...Okaylah ,not really significant lah,but hey its only PART-TIME~!, FULL-TIME will come next year... =D

My impression of John and Choon Kai?

My impression of John is,just one word to describe you man,Cool~! Although,sometimes can't get into the same topic with you,Ehem,Ehem,Ehem but your Awesome Man~!.May be very serious at times,but always have an open heart..Finally got to know you after seeing you for so many times but not a single word exchanged...Glad to know you Man~!

Now my impression of Choon Kai...Dude your Cute man~! And no i am no trying to be Gay~! Ehem,but your cute~! We did so many erm,i would say lame things together lah but,who cares~! Haha,glad to know you~! A fun person to be around with...Glad to know you~!

Glad to have you guys here and as my roomates...

Well,i guess John must be very happy now since he is back home,Ehem Ehem Ehem, =D ,and i know Choon Kai must be enjoying himself now...(Hope the Lizard surives all the way to KT)

Well,this has been one awesome journey...Well,hope for next time~! And i ponder,hmmph what would next year YMI be like? =P Okay~! Enough of talking i guess well...

Till next time bahz~!

And Mata Nerh~!

HWATING,GAMBATEH,JIAYOU~!

BeeVee blogged at 5:43 AM

Strumming away my thoughts and feelings
The rhytm of my heartbeat...

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Woah,i just got back from the Orang Asli Kampung at Sungai Danga...And man i and beat~! But i want more~! I thank God that this time i had the chance to join the YMI Team which is John Lim(Kluang) and Choon Kai(KT) their really awesome people...Their still staying over there,sadly i can't join them because i have school,if not i would have definately 100% join them...And i your wondering how are they,they are doing fine...Except for the mosquito bugging them but they should be alright...

I've spend the past 2 day,right after school until around night time with them and hagging out in the Orang Asli Kampung and with the Kids there with John and Choon Kai...I got to say,hagging out with them really opened my eyes and inspired me,and that is why i am here now writing about it...

I got to say,the Orang Asli Kids are really friendly people...And the adults are kind people too...Okay,many people now have their perspective that Orang Asli people are that of low class etc bla bla bla esatra esatra but Hey~! Their as Good as Us Okay~! And in many ways Better then Us~!

Okay firstly i want to talk about the kids...The kids are just so friendly and cute...And although they don't have what normal mordern kids have now their just so happy and contented with life....Now,just take a look at a average modern kid now...What does he have? His computer games? TV? PSP? Esatra esatra esatra,... All this things...But the Orang Asli kids don't have such pleasure...But when i'm with them,their just so contented and happy with life...If you take a Modern Kid now,and bring him to a Kampung without his TECHNOLOGY...What do you think he will do? Complain right? But this kids,although they don't have much but they just go and look for stuff to play...Even the most simple thing is fun to them...

Take for instant,a simple basketball...I brought my basketball and the next thing you know it,there were so many Kids playing and having fun with it...Do you think a Modern Kid will have fun with it?

My point is,i felt so touch by this kids...They don't have much,but they don't complain that much...The only things i've heard them complain is,their thirsty and hungry...Hmmph? What would a modern kid say? (Think~!)

Moreover they are so full of energy~! By night time,with a whole day spend with them,Me,John and Choon Kai were already dead tired...But the kids were still running here and there playing and having fun...Goodness~! These kids have so much energy even though what they eat each day is so much different from a Modern Kid now...

But for me,the sad thing is the kids are now being expose more and more to this world...I remembered in the past they really didn't have television but now they do,(Not every house lah) in a way i'm happy for them but i'm afraid they would become corrupted by this world and once exposed to it,start to complain and become discontented...I hope that they will always be happy and contented with life...

And being in the kampung is just so peaceful...You still have vehicles lah,radio tv,it's not really that Ulu lah but in a way,its pretty peaceful there...Its awesome and i really enjoyed myself hagging out with the kids,although tomorrow is the last day hagging out with them,but i know there will be more chances...xD

Now,i'm pretty focused on the Youth Aflame Night/YMI Night this coming friday...I really hope it will go well and the turn out will be good...I really really really hope so...I hope that with all the fast songs in the worship,our youth can jump and worship God like that of ESP because,hey~! why can we only Jump and praise God in ESP and not anywhere else~! So my vision is to change that~! To change that yes~! I really really uberly superly duperly hope and pray that this friday will be a blast and the turn out will be good...Please help to pray for it~! Thanks~!

BeeVee signing out~!

BeeVee blogged at 5:49 AM

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The rhytm of my heartbeat...

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Okay,well this post is basically going to be my guitar story,and of how God had clearly helped me to learn this Awesome Instrument...And also of how (MUA) a guy that never had any music background or didn't even know any musical instrument being able to play this Awesome Musical Instrument...But to be honest,now,being able to serve God with playing the guitar,was a DREAM that i could Day Dream about in the past,but now is a reality that has came true~!

Okay,it all started in during my end years of Form 2...That was the time i came back from ESP 2007...By that time,i came back with so much fire and passion to serve God...I remembered,admiring all the Musicians in ESP or in church of how blessed they are to be able to serve God on stage with their unique gift with Music...I remembered i used to Day Dream of the day when i will be like them...

I didn't know why,but of all the Musical Instrument,the Guitar caught my eye the most...Maybe it was God's Will? Hmmph...Anyways,i remembered i used to pray to God everyday to allow me to be able to play the guitar,and i mean Literally everyday kneeling down and praying...

And well,i turn to some of my Friends to teach me,but they didn't really had the Heart to teach me,so i kept praying...And my hope came from YMI 2008...To be honest,i was hoping and praying that the person send to be JB was a guitarist and that maybe somehow he/she would be able to teach me the guitar,well someone like Ryan...

But in the end,Ryan wasn't sent but two guys who were,Daniel Eh and Ping Keat...At first i was downstruck but it was God's will...Okay Long Story Short,both Daniel Eh(My Guitar Shi Fu) with the help of Ping Keat taught me the guitar,and i actually learnt it~! But i was still a complete Newbie and Noob at that time lah,don't expect me to be pro by then...

And well,they went back,and as time progress,there was so many many many many times that i really wanted to give up on the Guitar...And i remembered for days on end i wouldn't even touch the Guitar... But i have to thank Ezri and Ezra for encouraging and helping me to go on too~!...Although 90% of the time,they gave me negative comments(SARCASM)...But,i guess it was their own Unique way of helping me because it really pushed me to Prove to them i'm not as lousy as you say i am...So in a way,Thanks Guy~!

And so, i remembered leading one song of worship,which was Here I Am To Worship, and Ezra asked me to start playing the guitar in church,(Long story Short) I learn alot from Worship Practice...I really thank Ezra,Ezri and Justin for helping me and bearing through all the Guitar Newbie/Noobie/Noob question asked during worship practice...Thanks Jas T for giving me all your encouragement and support too~!Thanks Peoplez~!

And i continued playing,and improved bit by bit and until where i am now...I'm a full fletch guitarist in church~!(But i'm not Pro okay,i'm still learning every single day) My dream,had finally been fulfill~! I am able to serve God by playing the Guitar in church and even the Bass Guitar~! What only seemed as a Dream in the past had been fulfill~! I knew i couldn't have done it by myself but through all the way,i knew God's hand was right there pushing me to fulfill what i want to accomplish...Praise God~!

But to be honest,sometimes i find myself playing the Guitar/Bass not for God but for Men...The feeling is like,you are so used to playing the Guitar/Bass and some what becomes a Routine or Duty and you know the regular worshipers by face...But when some new people come in,or friends from other places etc come in,you feel fired up with passion to play,or suddenly feel like playing with purpose...Besides that,treating worship practices as Routines or Duties to be done,rather then a Privellage to Serve God,not taking it seriously but lightly,playing a fool...Loosing the Reverance for God...Without realising that Serving Him on Stage,bringing people into a trance of worshiping God is such a great honour and privellage...Taken over by selfless desires like,Oh what time will it end? I have a TV show later,or i am hungry,or Gosh i'm just so tired or i have something else better to do,Aiya its just worship practice,no Biggy,Esatra,Esatra....

Many times i just feel so ashame of myself,of taking for granted the Gift that God has bless me with and ended up misusing it...The Gift that i've pray countless hours for...I don't know whether other Worship Band Members face the same thing...But as for me,its a struggle now i face...I hope i will be able to rekindle the passion and fire to serve God as that of my earlier days and always have that Reverance to serve HIM Passionately and Focus on Jesus alone...I really do hope so....

Okay,i hope this post didn't made you Gantok,Pengsan or Fall Asleep...Thanks for reading,and God Bless~!

BeeVee blogged at 6:12 AM

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Tuesday, January 5, 2010

School has reopen again,this past 2 days had pretty much been the same as last year...Just only the New Teachers teaching,me sitting right infront and a sudden increase of students~! There are really too many students now...More than the school can handle...It seems as if,this year schooling days is going to be the same as last year...Haar,although i don't want it to be,but most likely it's going to be...I'm usually very quiet and introvate in school,you won't often see my Wild Side in school...I guess its the difference in friends,somehow i can't really Click with them..But i'm rather okay with it.Why? Well for one i don't get into trouble that often as in my old school.Gosh,i still miss my Old Friends,oh well all for the name of my Future i guess...

Although i may sound,quite sad about it,but all is not lost~! My academics has improve by a mild stone~! It's much better now compared to the past,although its still not perfect but it has improved~! Praise God~!

I hope everything turns out fine this year,and especially in my SPM...

I guess all i can do is continue to pray and hope for the best...

BeeVee blogged at 5:43 AM

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Sunday, January 3, 2010

School is going to open~! Goodness time has passed so fast~! It has been one Awesome Holiday~! I've done,learnt,went and helped many things and places~! School is going to open tomorrow,in a way,i'm not as dreadful for it as usual...I guess one of the reason is because this holiday has just been too fullfilling,i've already done so much thing and i don't regret but am happy for~!

But i do hope,that as School reopen,it's going to be Enlightening and Fun~! I really do hope so...And SPM~! Ahhh,and i'm in Form 5 now~! Senior~! Although i don't feel like one,but i am one...Goodness,time has passed so fast~!

Lord i pray that you'll bless me this year in my life and in school...I pray that you'll bless me in helping me to grow to you and do well in my SPM...

God Bless...

BeeVee blogged at 6:41 AM

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The rhytm of my heartbeat...

Friday, January 1, 2010

Woah~! For me,time has truly past so fast...It is now already 2010~! 2010 People~!

I can't believe i'm going to turn 18 this year although i'm not really 18 material YET~! But woah~! Time flew past so fast~!

Well,2009 had really been a blast...During 2009,i really had many Up's and Down's and i was struggling with being Broken by God...But i hope and pray,this won't be a year of being broken,because i already had my time of being broken,but a year of Spiritual Revival and Maturity...But netherless 2009 had been one Awesome Year...

A few days prior to reaching 2010,as every student i think,i was kind of down of leaving 2009 and all of her past behind me and move to 2010...Well,More or Less Negative about 2010...But now,t i'm rather looking forward for 2010...Okay,maybe not the SPM nor the School part lah,but i'm rather looking forward for all the plans and activities that are plan out to happen this year and all the things that will happen this year...

And well,i can't believe i'm seriously going to turn 18 this year...Goodness,has time flew past so quickly...I hope that this year,i could finally become a CG Leader after so much time...I want to,but i'm afraid i'm not Good enought to lead them...Am i the right person? I still have many flaws in me?

Well,but i guess i have to buckle up,to seriously start behaving like one...Although i'm not sure whether i am ready for the responsibility and able to change,but Deep in my heart,i know,i just know everything will turn out fine this year,that this year,i don't know how or when,but i just know,Faith i guess,knowing that everything will turn out well...

But i do know,i will still have my Up's and Down's,but Hey~!? Everyone has this too right? I guess one Major thing i've learn in 2009 is,whenever i'm Down,i cannot ever stay down but must pick myself up,even though how guilty or hard it may be,but i just have too...I've also learnt,this isn't as easy as it sounds,it really isn't that easy...

I hope and pray,this year will be The Year,yes,The Year...

BeeVee blogged at 6:35 AM

Strumming away my thoughts and feelings
The rhytm of my heartbeat...