Life as it is...

Reflections & Resolutions..

2011-12-31T21:10:00.000-08:00

Hey ya! Well, it's 2012 already! Yet another year has passed ushering another brand New Year!

Before i make other posts of this year, i guess it's important first to do some Reflections of 2011.

2011 truly has been a year much many New Things, Learning & Experience which i guess have never learnt so much in one Year as in 2011.

YMI~!

I remembered starting the Year with YMI or Youth Mission Initiative. It was truly a Great experience, a One Month long Mission trip in Kluang and in Sentul Kuala Lumpur. Experience so much, we were sent to a School for Refugees where we helped out there. It was truly a Great eye opener being able to see Life in the eyes of others, being away from home being independent and working hard labour, yup you heard it hard labour! And making many Awesome Friends in the process.

Volunteer Work~!

Well, after YMI while waiting for my SPM results, i remembered signing up to do volunteer work at Calvary Victory Center which is basically like a school for children with Autism. True enough, this was another Great eye opener. I mean, working, helping & teaching children whom are Special. I bet not many people actually have this experience working with children with Austism, and true enough its an experience i'm proud to bear. Learnt that you know we are really actually so Blessed. Be CONTENT & HAPPY with your Life. What i learnt, even these Children can be so Joyous & Happy even with their disabilities, why not us? But honestly, at many times even i find myself biting on the very experience & words i said.

College Life~!

During that entire time leading up to obtaining my spm results, One Major Theme always ringing through my mind was whats next with my Education? What am i going to study where am i going to study? I found myself thinking over & over again over the same very questions which haunted me so much.

I had many different plans, paths & places which i made for my studies, but you know what? I don't know, all my plans didn't really materialize and at the end of it all, i ended up in TARC Johor Branch.

Many times i'm asked, what in the World are you doing in TARC Beven? And why are you taking Public Relations? Because true enough TARC nor Public Relations wasn't what i've plan or dream of taking. Honestly, it was almost at the bottom of the lists of studies and colleges to go to~!

And yet, i find myself ending up here in TARC studying PR. You know, sometimes the very Dreams we have or Desire may not necessarily materialize. Alright even though its true it may HURT not being able to achieve your Dreams, but hey? If one Dream is far out of reach why not Find another Dream instead? And yes, i have found another Dream. To study until i end up in England & graduate with a Masters. Yup, perhaps it's a bit far fetch, but hey Aim for the Skies right? =P

Singapore~!

Another thing which happened this year is actually learning to be able to travel to & around Singapore. Before 2011, i was a complete IDIOT in going to Singapore. I totally did not know the routes and ways to travel to Singapore even though i live in Johor Bahru which is like so NEAR to Singapore. But because of friends and in the name of Love, yeaa i learnt how to travel to Singapore and yup, now i can confidently travel to singapore, okay not EVERYWHERE lah but can traveeel.. =P

Love~!

And the last, perhaps will be Love. Ah i bet your eyes must be opened wide now & adjusting your seat in the process. LOVE~! I'm sure if you know me, yea you'll be like sooo excited to read this now. haha.

Well, yea i guess i can't deny that another major theme of 2011 was about Love. Fell in Love and actually learnt so much from it. Really, i guess this is the first time i'm actually that serious, i mean actually really trying to woo a girl. WOAH another new experience! But yea, these past few months has really been something. Learnt like how to write songs, fold origami, travel and also learning to take Risks.

Well, i'm still single though, lol~! Maybe ain't good enough for her, perhaps she deserves someone better than me? I don't know. Find myself in a crossroad of Holding on to something which seems to distant now or Letting go & moving on with Life.

Love can be so Sweet & Wonderful but yet also very Painful & Hurtful.

But i guess whats important is this, it ain't about Finding the Right person, but Becoming the Right Person.

Resolutions~!

Well, my resolutions for 2012 would firstly be, being the strong Christian i used to be. Yup, not as Strong nor Holy as a Christian i used to be honestly, hopefully can rebuild back that Strong Christian Beven i used to me. Next, will also be doing well in my studies, maintaing a CGPA of 3.8 and above. Yuuup and also to continue to revive back the Christian Fellowship here in TARC. Lastly, yea hopefully will find my companion this year. That's all i guess.

Happy Blessed New Year Everyone~! (:

TARC Christmas Celebration

2011-12-20T10:25:00.000-08:00

Well, we're finally going to have our Christmas Celebration here in TARC (Johor Branch) organize by our own Christian Fellowship. Can't wait for it! I've been dreaming and envisioning of this day since first entering college, to plan a Christmas Celebration event for TARCIANS here in our campus. And finally it's coming true!

We started planning about two weeks ago, we're gonna have games, worship, performances, gift exchanges, fellowship & FUN~!
You know, our Christian Fellowship here in our Campus has been DEAD for many years. And now, this year we're slowly reviving it. Upon coming into college, it has always been my dream and vision to revive the CF here.

In the beginning, finding fellow Christians here is really like finding needles in a haystack! It was really that hard! It's not like very one has big Sign Boards hanging over their heads saying, CHRISTIAN HERE~! It was truly a Challenge. In the beginning, there was only four of us, and now it was grown to Twelve! Yup! Well, maybe to you it may not be a VERY big number, but for us here it really is. We now have a small band, only lacking of a Keyboardist but we have many TALENTED people!

We have a COOL BeatBoxer name Stanza~! His totally AWESOME with beatboxing man! We have an Awesome Singer name Sam~! Great musicians like Chih Jun & Jason~! And a Groovy Dancer name Hong Chin! Awesome IT Technician Wei Long, a Good Christian leader Jonathan, helpers like Daniel & Dickson. We've all been working together for this event which we will have pretty soon. And many others!

I am proud of our acomplishments so far even though we only started joining together not too long. Simply hoping & praying everything will go Awesomely well later.
God please help us to do our Best & also to be able to bring about the TRUE meaning of Christmas to all our Friends. Bless us Lord~! AMEN!

Priorities...

2011-12-19T19:19:00.000-08:00

Priorities. Sometime ago i've read this somewhere before. It says, life is is like a container. Not too sure whether you've heard of it before and the things in life we fill in it refers to the things we treasure in life.

If we put the bigger things in the container first, lets say rocks in it it takes space, but there are spaces left. But there are still room for more things inside like placing marbles, pebbles and lastly sand to make that container full. However, if we place the sand first, the smaller things first, there won't be room for any other things.

Recently, honestly life has been pretty rough to me. Love, Responsibilities, Accountability, Character & Studies has really been a big bugger to me.

Worst part is, got back my Public Relation Test paper today. Oh man, did so badly for it. I was totally shocked at my results. How could i have done so badly? What went wrong? I studied for it and yet huh? Disappointment i am no doubt about it. But what can i do but to accept me failure as a lesson? I am Happy to see my friends in class succeeding, try to put on a smile but deep down, disappointment grips.

Back to priorities. Have to fix my priorities right, and do what is right to not disappointment myself and the people around me whom really love & cares for me. Bulk up Beven. Jiayou...

安静。。。

2011-12-11T09:01:00.000-08:00

安静我会离开你。

你已經遠遠離開　我也會慢慢走開
不用擔心的太多　我會一直好好過

Love...

2011-11-23T23:06:00.000-08:00

Love is such a Great thing. It's one of those things in this world which can never be dissolve nor destroyed. Love can really drive us to do some of the most extraordinary things which we've never expected ourselves to ever do. It's like a great driving force which can accelerate or push ourselves. It's really something Great. I bet everyone has had that feeling of being in Love before. You know, whether be the love towards another person, parents, a pet or even some things. It's that warm, fuzzy lovely feeling which cannot be describe by using mere words. It's something which really something which can only truly be understood by Feeling.

However, relying on Feeling itself in Love, ain't really Love. A respected Friend of mine, once said, You know whats True Love is all about? It's doing something for someone when you don't feel like it. That's the True test of a persons love.

But yet, Love is hard. It's easy to fall in love with someone, but it's totally a different story in hoping that person will have like you the same way. Sometimes i really wonder & envy how blessed some couples really are. Their just so blissful, happy even through difficult times and being thousands of miles apart, yet they hold on to each other. And how in the world did he manage to win her over. Really, i ponder.

You know, often we tend to fall for the most unexpected person, in the most unexpected places or the most unexpected time.

Hardest part is, doing, spending & sacrificing so much for that very person, and not really reaping what you've sowed can simply be such an heartache. Hoping that just maybe, maybe that person will also feel the same way towards you.

Trying to hold on to something which you have no idea where it will lead is so confusing and hard. But yet, there's this hope, Hope which is the driving force, Hope, Hope that just maybe, against all the odds, obstacles and problems, maybe, just maybe, One day you'll have that special person in your arms.

Love never fails, but will it this time?

City~!

2011-10-28T22:06:00.000-07:00

Ah yes, the city. Oh how i wish to be in the City right now. Just, feel like wanting to get out of the house, and treading around a CITY~!

Recently, been walking around and vising Singapore, and yea, ahhhh how i would like to go back there~! Yea the City! Or even Kuala Lumpur for that matter of fact.. Well i'm not complaining nor whining. Studying in TARC here in Segamat, well has its perks and also cons.

It's very peaceful for one, not much distraction where you can really concentrate on your studies. I mean, common it's like a Dead town here, the usual place you can go if you want to hang out is, err Local Cyber Cafes, Karoke and Mac Donalds. Yea, i guess that's about it. Your best friend are your Friends. Oh, without them it's one BORING Life here.

Staying back for the weekends here is just simply, BORING. Ahhh, not much to do. Well, at least going out for Futsal later, that'll be cool. But yea, i'm sooo going to have a City Life after i graduate from my Diploma here in Segamat. Degree, or even Masters for that of fact MUST be done in a City. Haha..

I guess, in a way its a good thing cause i'm able to experience the BEST of two types of world. One, Serene, peaceful & Boring life, another with the hussle & bussle of a city Life rushing here and there with Entertainment galore!

You know, sometimes i still ask myself, what in the World am i doing here in TARC Segamat? LOL! I could be in Singapore Poly or some College in KL. Well, sometimes i get confuse with this too. But i mean, i know larh God has a plan for everything.

Ecclesiastes 3:1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.

God has His ways, his purpose & his plans.

1 Corinthians 2:9 However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him...

Well, at least i'm going back JB the next coming weekend and going to Singapore! Yea! To visit a Dear Friend of mine which i can't wait, *cough cough* haha, and also to visit Heart of God church and being in a City~! Can't wait lah! Seriously can't! Patience Beven patience.

Ohya and p.s i'm sooo going to work in Singapore in the future. Just have to wait it out here in TARC Segamat and finish my studies, cannot cannot cannot give up. Must fight till the end, even though how Boring it is here.

Jiayou lah! =)

Twitter~!

2011-10-26T23:56:00.000-07:00

Ahh yes Twitter. Recently, just started using twitter and yea, well i'm in love with it~! Even though, its like a simpler version of facebook, but the best thing i love about twitter is that i'm able to write anything i want on it~! Because, i only have friends in Twitter whom i know and well, can trust. In facebook, there's like so many people! And, don't feel as comfortable to share personal things about my life. So yea, Twitter has come and don't think it'll leave anytime soon.

It's a place to vent out what i want to say, but can't in Facebook. Awesome...=)

A start of something New?

2011-10-25T18:37:00.000-07:00

Well, i have no idea where this will lead me. I have to admit that this is really something, it's really something that i don't think i'm willing to let Go off just like that. I just hope & pray that this will work out, really i do hope this does. Hope i'm not also being a fool once again. I've been a fool many times, and i hope i'm not gonna be one Again.

God Help Me, Lead & Direct Me...

Dancing...

2011-10-20T05:17:00.000-07:00

Ahhhh, Dancing.. Recently started to learn dancing and yea, after so much procrastination and dreaming, i'm finally on my way to be a dancer. It feels Great dancing, i mean i love it~! Love moving to the beat of the music and at the same time learning new steps and stunts to add on to your arsenal of moves to do while dancing. AWESOME~! And besides, i mean it's a GREAT FORM of Exercise. Really, you use your entire Body while Dancing. And yea, i'm basically feeling the burn in my muscles now, ahhhh.. Tired tired tired now...

Beginning to learn to dance, reminds me of when i first started learning Guitar too. It wasn't easy in the beginning, the time, effort and pain your have to go through. But in the end of it all, it's all worth it... Well, will keep practicing and do my best~!

Well besides dancing, there's another thing. I mean, even though i've started learning dancing, i have some friends. Their like so skeptical when they heard i'm actually learning to dance. I mean, i'm disappointment with their responses, it's like their teasing and looking down on you.. And i'm like, common we're friends right? We've spent so much time together going through ups and downs, the least you can do is Support & Encourage your buddy when he's pursuing something he Loves. Not tease, look down nor discourage them. That ain't the way man, that ain't what REAL friends should do...

Have to get over this and just ignore their remarks or discouragements. This will NOT hinder me to pursue my Dream~!... Jiayou~!

Being a Leader...

2011-10-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

You know, ever since coming to college i've or i believe God has been thrusting me into many leadership roles. I mean, i'm place in positions where i have to lead, to decide, to plan and to determine. I mean, its true, it's a good right? Being able to lead & learn at the same time to be an even better leader.

But at times, honestly it can get so tiring & hard. Being a Good Leader ain't an easy thing. It ain't. Sometimes, the people whom you lead, can expect so much from you. As if your a God. And when you don't meet up to their expectation, or in the process screw up, well here comes all the arrows. Complaints & blunt attacks which, well at times can really be hurtful or depressing.

Honestly, before this i never thought of myself as a leader. I've always look at myself as a worker, who takes orders from people and obediently just follow. However, even though i was bless before to have various opportunity to lead, but i mean yea i never looked at myself as a Strong Leader on which people can really rely & depend on. Honestly, i know my faults. I'm indecisive at times, i stall in making decisions, i worry too much and think too much. With that said, why would anyone follow me or let me lead them? There are many Leaders out there whom are better than myself.

But even with all my faults, yet God has choose me. Why? God choose me to lead my PR Class. Why? God choose me to lead the events in my class Why? And now God is choosing me to Lead Christian Fellowship in my College. Why? Why? Sometimes, i ask myself & God this questions. Even with all my faults yet God choose me.

I guess its like how God choose Moses in the bible huh? Even with all his faults, yet God choose him to lead His people. I'm not saying i'm Moses, where i'm totally not. But i can relate to how Moses felt. Why me of all the other people?

They say Leaders are Made. Maybe that's what God is doing now? I've been stretch to my limits lately, Plannings, organizing, directing, solving problems & making decisions. Having so much responsibilities on my shoulders. Honestly, it's tiring. But, true enough from my heart, i'm enjoying all i'm experiencing now even the all the challenges which comes my way in my Heart. I look at myself, woah Beven. I can't believe it. Your actually looked to as a Leader. People actually depend and follow you. Woah, seriously? Even i find myself hard to believe it.

I just pray & hope i'll be able to continue to lead with wisdom, courage & patience and become a better leader to not disappoint God nor the people God has given me to Shepherd.

God, help me to Lead the people which you've given me to Shepherd with Love, Patience & Wisdom. Amen...

Busy'ness

2011-10-12T10:48:00.000-07:00

Oh noo.. Recently, have soooo many things to do that it has pile up the a big extent. Gosh, deprived of sleep recently and with tons of things to do. Drama, assignment, presentation, rehearsals study...Gaaah.

God sustain me through this period...

Lost~!

2011-10-07T10:28:00.000-07:00

Well, i'm basically here to blog or to write about a particular incident where by which I actually got LOST in a mountain. Yup, you heard it i literally got LOST in the Jungle on a Mountain which is Gunung Lambak. It happened well about three weeks ago. And yea, why am i blogging it only now? Well, i would say i was kinda lazy to blog about it till now~! Haha. So here is my story and experience by being LOST in the Jungle, my experiences, struggles, fears, hope and lesson. xD

Well, it started first as a simple hike up Gunung Lambak planned by a church. So well, i was free that time so well tagged along. Well when we arrived at the foot of the mount, boy were we excited. Like kids with ice cream. haha LOL... And i mean, it wasn't my first time climbing up the mount, this would be my second, so i thought, ahhhh second time no big deal.

My friends were saying stuff like, ahh i'll race you to the Top! This is easy lah! And they were betting around. But boy oh boy,were they gonna regret what they said.

And so we began our journey. Or slow tedious hike up the mount wasn't easy as the path wasn't straight, well it was only for the very beginning. After that, it was a real tedious hike up. I stopped quite a number of times to for big grasp of air. And thought man, i should have trained more before hiking up. And so we climbed and climbed up the mount. Encouraging each other along the way and also competing at the same time. Cause well, Boys will be Boys lah haha. Thank God, all of us managed to reach the Top. And boy oh boy, that feeling of Euphoria you get after shedding all your sweat, effort and work and finally accomplishing is simply Awesome.

So at the top, we rested, took pictures and simply marvelled at the wonderful scenery that behold in front of us as you can see as the first picture at the Top. But trust me, it looks soo MUCH better in real life.

Well, then friend said we should be getting down soon. But, we had to go to the toilet. And yea, where else could you go to the toilet then in the Forest? I mean the Forest is your Toilet man. haha.. So, then we went exploring around the peak of the mount and found a mini toilet i would say. I mean, someone must have dug a hole and place a stool there. So yeaa, my friends took turns pissing there while i just piss at the trees. *OKAAAY, NOT IMPORTANT INFORMATION LOL!!! =.=" *...

Anyways, after that my friends saw a path. They started saying that they took this path before, but honestly it looked very creepy with hedges of branches covering the path and it seemed as if no one had took the path in a long long time. Well, but they kept insisting that they took this path before and it was a short cut. Well, initially i didn't want to take that path, i mean common its like a death sentence lah. But well, i thought of the thrill & adventure and well, even if we die we die as Brothers, which i regretted saying, =.=". So, all of us began our track down that uncertain path. Much like in Life huh? When we take an uncertain path and have no idea where it'll lead us. So i just followed them as they lead us

As we hiked down, that path slowly disappeared and gave way to even denser hedges of branches, trees and leaves. I mean, you could barely see where your going. But it was thrilling it really felt as if your own a big adventure. My friends in front kept saying, oh we see a path in front! We see a rope in front! But you know what, there wasn't a path nor rope in sight =.=". But we kept on going.

Then a friend said, well since we've already tracked down to this point, lets just continue down cause we'll bound out to end up at the bottom of the mount. So we agreed and continued on.

The path only kept getting worst and worst. Until a point where we just stopped. Looked around, and admitted, alright "We're Lost". We're seriously LOST in a Jungle. By then, morale was at its steepest. To add on to the bad news, we finished all our rations of water. We were all tired, thirsty, dehydrated, devastated and frustrated. Moreover, the soil on which we stepped on wasn't hard soil. It was soft and muddy. We practically had to use our entire body grabbing branches and trees for support. The condition was terrible.

To make things worst, i got poked by a branch in my eye which hurt badly, *OUCH* and my Little Brother, * Ahem ahem, you know a Guys Best FRIEND cough cough* got kicked by my friend accidentally. And boy, it hurt like mad. Imagine always watching in the movies where the bad guy gets kicked in the nuts? And ever wondered how it felt? I'll tell you its NASTY...

We continued on tracking down until a point we said, alright we have to stop! We're not going anywhere. And so we decided to track all the way back up. And boy was it tiring and tedious tracking all the way up. I mean, i was literally exhausted. Try hiking for about 3 hours? Yeaa.. I mean, i was filled with anguish and devastation until a point where i actually thought, am i going to DIE?

I started thinking about Life and thought there's still so much i haven't done yet. This can't be the end, can it? I don't want to perish here. There's still so much to do and to be accomplish. God i don't want to Die here. I made a desperate prayer to God begging Him to spare us and allow us to survive through this ordeal.

And so we continued on hiking, battling our fatigue and growing anguish. And true enough, i've never experience anything like this before. It was one big Adventure. We continued battling up the Hill, overcoming the odds and finally, thankfully we arrived at the top once again.

I don't know how to express the feeling. I was so so Happy that we reached salvation. There was an uncle & auntie at the top and gave us some water to drink and boy, Water Never Tasted that GOOD. Then the uncle & auntie guided us down the mount, even though we were exhausted but at least we're on the right path. And after 4 grueling hours of hiking, we finally arrived back down the mount. My legs were shaking but felt so Happy that we're basically saved.

I guess, this ordeal has thought me this in Life. Life, is really fragile. You won't know when your very existence might just end like that. As i was battling the mount, i thought of all the things i regretted not doing and all my weaknesses and things which i haven't accomplish. I thought about how i wasn't Brave enough in many instances in facing Life's struggle where many times i'll just bail out and escape. It thought me, to really face up to your challenges & be Brave. Live your Life with no Regrets.

And of course, Love God. Cause i know even as i was battling the mount, God was helping me all the way.

So that's my story, and yes i know its LONG. Sorry to strain your eyes though. Shalom & Take Care Everyone. =)

Guitar...

2011-10-07T09:18:00.000-07:00

Well, its been almost more than a week now since i'v last lay hands on my Guitar, and boy oh boy how i am missing it soo much now... How i wish to hold it in my arms and play it. Gosh... Alright, i'll be honest, have been kinda lazy brushing up my Guitar when i had my Guitar with me all the while especially during my semester break. But like when you need something so much, and realize its not with you while in the back of your mind, knowing you had it all along before, it mean it really Stinks. Its like not giving the appreciation as it deserves only to regret when its gone. I guess at many times in life, that's how its like huh? We'll only start appreciating something or someone for that matter of fact only when its gone huh? I guess its a mistake, i've been making all to commonly. And yes, its repercussion well just Stinks...

Lord Help me to Appreciate the things in Life you've Bless me more...

Sometimes...

2011-10-05T09:30:00.000-07:00

Recently i've read this qoute, it says, Sometimes God doesn't give us what we want, not because we don't deserve it, but because we deserve Better. I mean, in some ways i agree to it. Have always been longing for something, but i don't know why, up till now the answer from God has always been no no no no. Sometimes it really can get tiring, or frustrating. But i guess, God knows whats Best huh? God knows what is truly Best for us and desires to give us the Best. Why? Because God Loves us more than we can ever understand. Uh huh.. Haaaaaaaa, guess need to continue to have Faith & Trust in God.

Lord help me to learn to have more Faith & Trust in your Lord. To have patience in you for you have your own perfect timing Lord...

It really Stinks...

2011-10-04T02:33:00.001-07:00

You know, it stinks to be sick. I mean, who loves being sick? Okay lah for those whom are REALLY Desperate to get Leaves, getting sick is your Golden Ticket. But for us, i mean who loves being sick? It affects you so much, hinders you from obtaining your potential, pulls & drags you down. Man oh man how i HATE being sick now.

Previously about 2 weeks ago i went mountain climbing. And i got those small little scratches around my arms and legs thanks to being Lost in the Mountain that is, =.=". But everything was fine. After about a week, i don't know why, this small cuts started swelling up until an extent it looked as if i contracted some disease or something. It was dead serious. I went to see two GP doctors and both prescribe their medicine, but there was only slow recovery. And up till today i went to a third doctor, a skin specialist which concludes the total to three Docs. And now, the Doc has given me Steroids, yeaaaa STEROIDS my goodness its some heavy dope man.

The worst part of all these is being absent from College. Gosh, have to be absent for One week of college and i hate it so much. I've been missing out on so many things classes, assignments, tutorials and my class needs me to lead them for a coming event. But i'm stuck here at home *RESTING*. Gosh, i'm frustrated & disappointed. I don't really know why this Skin Infection have to occur on me? I mean i wasn't the only one that got lost in the mountain, and yet i'm the only one with this problem now. The worst is the worry you create on your Mum and those you love and the Money spent on medications. Gaaah. Well, look on the bright side, at least i didn't end up in a hospital bed.

It really stinks, forcefully having to stay at home like a prisoner, feeling helpless and knowing at the back of your mind where you have so much things to be done. It really really stinks. Hope i recover soon...

Blessed 19th Birthday!

2011-09-21T11:36:00.001-07:00

Well Happy Birthday to me! Haha well yesterday, which was the 21st of September was my birthday. It was Awesome!

Birthdays only happens once a year and is a special day because it's the day we're born into this world. True enough, Birthdays has spread to every country in the world and is an accepted culture in everybody as a day of joyous celebration of the person birth.

Yup, that's a formal definition lah, haha. Well, yesterday, i celebrated my 19th birthday with my friends over here in TARC. And true enough, had a Happy & Merry day. Although the planning was kinda last minute, but Thank God everything went quite smoothly.

I'm so thankful that so many of my friends were more then willingly to celebrate with me! 18 of them to be exact and we had 4 cars for transportation! Woah! Really, am grateful to them. Had a very fun night and day.

It's been a long time since i celebrated my birthday with so many friends, and i'm more than thrilled!

Well, so you must be thinking what are my wishes? Haha. First, i wished that i'll become a Better Person. To change even more. =) Second, that all my friends here in TARC will do well in their studies and have a Happy & Merry Life all together. Third, well that's a secret. Haha..

Well, i guess that's about it. Till next time! Chaoz! =)

Progress soo faaaaaaar...

2011-09-17T07:06:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Woah it's been a long time since i last posted anything here. And boy oh boy a lot has happened these past months that i don't know where to start! Well, firstly i guess i'm gonna talk a bit about my first semester. Yes, i've FINISHED my 1ST semester in TARC College already! And boy oh boy a lot has happened during just One semester which has taught and also allow me to experience so many things.

Well, for one i'm thankful because i was able to make many friends here. We had many happy times where we would literally laugh our butts off but also times where would bring us to our utmost low. Experience a lot of those, DRAMAS i would say in college amongst friends which i guess has in a way helped me to grow more in maturity in friendships and how to handle problems them. Don't want to elaborate cause well the past is the past ain't it? No point crying over spilt milk! Haha...

Other than that, college life has been busy yet also fun i would say. We have tons of assignments here to complete not the mention tutorials but still manage to find time to enjoy too. Haha...

Well, that's one short description of College life bah.. Now on to my Semester Break Holidays! Woohoo! The duration of my break was well about 3 weeks and i can't believe that it is already over! Gaah so fast! Well, but it was truly one meaningful & enjoyable holiday! Truly.

Went out with many friends yamchaing and basically catching up with them, experience new things, did volunteer work in Calvary Victory Center which is basically a school for children with autism, went to singapore, went to kluang for an outing and really did tons of catching up with many of my friends which was awesome. Truly an awesome holiday! Well nothing much else to write i guess. See ya next time!

College Life...

2011-05-07T08:50:00.001-07:00

Well,my College Life has finally started...After a Week of Orientation by the College,my studies are finally going to start tomorrow...

This past week has been Fun,Challenging and also Tiring.But i am thankful that so far,everything has been working out smoothly and well.

I've been walking around and exploring the Campus of my College,and i got to say,its nice maan...Its what i had always dreamed & wished to have in a College...A big Campus ground,many Trees and plants around,Birds Chipping away,a complete collection of Sport Complex Ranging from a Swimming Pool to Tennis,Squash and others...Its simply nice.Quiet & Conducive for studies...But there are too,its con's i would say...One,the Hostels aren't actually in the Campus but are outside,so we have to rent rooms outside the campus and take buses there everyday...Well,with this,there are its pro's and cons too lah,some would say its a pros and others a con..Anyways besides that my College is located in Segamat.Well,its kind of a Boring town actually.It doesn't have any shopping malls nor movie theater nor places where we can really hang out...But i would say,its alright bah,thats where your friends come in,to spend time with them,for example going out for dinner and also eating Roti Canai's at Makmak Shops at Night Fellowshipping...Your Friends,ARE your Entertainment...

Anyways now on to the student population...After being through Orientation,realize that many of the people there,aren't really of English Add...What i mean is,they don't really use English as their Main Medium of Communication...Before entering TARC i was Skeptic & Worried cause i've heard that Many TARCIAN's don't really speak English & to make things worst, i am Banana(Meaning i'm more towards English than Mandarin)...But i thank God so much that after a week,i made many Good Friends...Their really Good people...Even though they don't really Speak Fluent English,but you know what now? Who Cares? Atlease their Good People...

But one of the Awesome thing is this,even though many of my friends aren't English Add,but they make the effort to try to Speak & use English...I myself am sometimes surprise that they'll sometimes approach me and start speaking to me in English even though it's not Easy for them...Thats the Awesome thing about it,and they also accept me,a Banana for who i am.I don't feel in any way Segregated nor Neglected,i am one of them,a fellow TARCIAN...With this,i mean i guess i see maybe theres a Purpose to why i am here...Maybe its to help Improve the Level of English of my Friends and fellow TARCIANS here? Who knows but God? But i Will try my Best to do that ,help improve the level of English in my Friends and TARCIANS...

Well,so far soo good..I Pray & Hope that i'll continue to Remain Strong and finish my studies here and never give up...

A Friend once told me,Don't Go Through Life,but Grow Through Life...

With this,i'll end with a quote from my Friend,

You may not know why you're placed there, but one day, God will reveal His great plans for you...
Its like pieces of a puzzle...
You'll get one piece per day..
And at the end of the day..
You'll get all the pieces..
And you'll see the whole picture of it...
And of corse, the person manipulating the puzzle is God..

A New Chapter...

2011-05-01T07:59:00.000-07:00

Well soon,a New Chapter in Life will being for me...A new phase in Life,which is College Life...

After being a baby,toddler,child,adolescent and now,Young Adult i think? Haha,waaah...And here i am,going to finally begin a new Story in my Life,going to experience,learn and receive new things in Life...

Well,so here i am going to TARC which is Tunku Abdul Rahman College.Honestly,it wasn't really my first voice.These past months after my SPM has seen me going through many Different Plans & Decisions in Life.

Have been Thinking & Planning about my Future,even going through all the possible routes for my future,researching about all the courses and almost all the Universities and Colleges in Malaysia,even Singapore...

Even though,at first,Public Relations wasn't really the course i had in mind...I was thinking of going back into Science,but when the time came ever closer to make my decision in life,i really started to Question myself,Am i Willing to go Back and Study Science? Even though its True that i had enjoyed studying Biology,but the same can't be said for all the other Science subjects like Chemy,Phy and even Maths..

Am i really Willing to go back? I remembered myself studying really really extremely hard,even forsaking soo many activities and things in the months prior to my SPM exam days...H

However during the actual days of the exam,when i did the Science papers,i realize,after all my studying,why is it that u am still so Blur & Confuse about the answers? And i remembered telling my mum after those Science Papers,i would never want to go back in Science...

And i asked myself,is this Really What i Want? Or is it the Image i want to maintain in others? In me Being all soo SMART going to study SCIENCE?
To add on,even though my SPM Science results came out,okaaay,especially Add Maths which miraculously i got a C+ in and in Bio A-,Chemy B,Phy B,Maths A,but i know,this is just Words and Grades...The REAL thing comes in HOW you actually manage to study and in your NORMAL exams,not just SPM...But to also view in your NORMAL exams in how you cope with it,and trust me,except for Bio,barely survived..

And i was in a situation,where i was seriously Confuse,and finally,made my Decision to Take Public Relations...Why?

I remembered what my Add Maths teacher said before,and she knows my studies well...She said i am strong in my Language,particularly in my English and should go for courses like Law or Mass Com,as that is where my full advantage can be use.However if i were to go back for Science,it most definitely would not be easy for me...

And with that and many others,made up my mind...Well,i'm hoping that everything will turn out well for my life and the paths which i am going to take...I guess what i need now is to have Faith and Trust and Believe in God that everything will turn out well and fine...And not to worry about this and that,but Faith in God...

Hoping Life will turn out well....

Last Night,Till Next Time!

2011-04-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

Well,this is my Last Night here in JB,before i'll be away for quite awhile...Yuuup...I am going to Miss this Beautiful & Wonderful House of Mine...Really Going to Miss it...And also to my Friends in JB,gonna miss you too!!! A LOT! Well,i guess this is the process of Growing up huh? Now leaving..Haah..I Hope & Pray everything turns out Well...

2011-04-27T09:27:00.000-07:00

Well,went out with two of my friends just now for some fellowship...Got to say,it was really Good,getting to go out with them after such a long time and fellowshipping with them...Had a Great Time with them...Knew both of them through Cell Group,from being a normal Cell Group member with them,to becoming their ex Cell Group Leader...Good to spend some time with them and catch up...Yuuup!

Volunteer Work!

2011-04-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

Well,it has already been two weeks since i've started my Volunteer Work in Calvary Victory Center...Anyways,for those of you who don't know what is Calvary Victory Center,it's basically a School for Children with Autism ranging from different age groups..And now,i can use the Short term for the school,which is,CVC...

Well,work over there has been good...Although at times,it can be tiring,but yet its fulfilling to be able to do something Good,rather than staying in the house and wasting your life Sleeping more then you should,watching tv and computer the whole day...

I rather enjoy helping and playing the Kids there.At times,they can really stretch your limit,and at other times,really warms your heart..Ohyah,i'm attached to the Young Kids there,around 5 to 10 years old...Yup!..

Also made many new friends amongst the teachers there and the Kids...

Even though my two weeks contract with God has already expired,but i am still going back there tomorrow to help out...Can't help but feel a part of me is attached there.Haha,yup...

It's getting late now,Nights everyone! Will upload some pictures,when i've taken more pictures and have time...Nights!

The Right Path?

2011-04-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

One day,there was a Boy...This boy started work at a ship called,Life from a very young aged,He worked his way up through the ranks overcoming all the obstacles and trials in his life to finally becoming the Captain of the Ship...

He was entrusted with Freedom & independence.Finally,he could now steer his Ship to which every path he may wished...He had dreamed about this Day since the very first day working in the Ship,and finally,his chance came.

The Captain then started making many plans on the course and paths he should take for the Long Voyage ahead of him.

However,whenever he finished a plan,after carefully calculating and researching everything in that particular path,somehow the captain wasn't satisfied with it and was afraid of taking that path...And so,the captain continued on and on making more and more plans but all ending up in the same conclusion,Uncertainty...

The Captain got frustrated not knowing of what to do.He had spent a Long time waiting in the harbour planning,but soon,he has to set sail...Opportunities came and go,plans appeared,but failed...

Uncertainty continues to gripple the captain...Time is running short...

So what now,Captain?

Complications..

2011-04-07T08:16:00.000-07:00

Don't know why,suddenly bumps or appearing on the Road now...Never expected things slowly pop out,hoping it will not effect my pathway,really am hoping so..Things are starting to get Complicated,Sigh,thought my path had already been cleared,now,almost back to Square One...Don't have much time left,hoping & praying things will turn out right & well...

College College!

2011-04-05T07:58:00.000-07:00

Ah!!! I can't wait to go to College already and study! Being at home all this while can be very boring! Many of my friends have already went and studied,and i can't wait till its my turn! Ohwell,what to do,have to wait lol,like it has been said,Good Things come to those who wait...So wait wait wait,it will come sooner or later...

Well,besides that,i've just started volunteer working in Victory Center,its basically a school for children with Autism...It felt Great finally being able to get out of the house and really do something Meaningful and Fulfilling..Although,i was and still am Dead tired after working for a whole day,but yeaaaa,but Exposer & Experience...Looking forward for tomorrow! As will be going back to the Center to Help out!

Anyways,College college college! Aiks! Faster come come come!!!! For the mean time,will be working working working!!! =P Chaoz!!!

Whats next?

2011-03-23T09:15:00.000-07:00

Just got back my SPM results today...Must say i am kind of disappointed with it.Expected to do better lah,but compared to many friends,i actually did alright already,cause it seemed as if last years SPM papers were harder,not only me,but can be seen through my friends too...Only a handful of them got Many A's,and those i thought would have gotten straight A's,did not...So in away,okay larh my results,not excellent,neither horrible,okay only...

But the important thing now is not to Cry over Spilled Milk,but to now DECIDE,What's Next?? Honestly,i'm not sure...Can't get into the University i want...Course wise? Still here and there...Pre-U studies? Where? When? Questions like this have been poping up in my mind lately...

I thought all my questions would have been answered after my Results,but it seem as if it is not...I know,the basic Christian thing to do is Pray and Read the Bible...But,yes i have been doing those two things for a Long time now,but wheres my Answer?

Have to make a decision soon...Please wish me All the Best bah...

A picture tells a thousand words...

2011-03-01T09:04:00.000-08:00

They say a picture tells a thousand words,hmmmm,okay,before you continue on reading this post,may i ask that you take sometime and observe the Big Picture above...Try to observe it and think about the picture and its meaning...

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Okay done? Haha...Okay,so what did we see? Hmmm,the sun setting? The tides retreating,revealing many rocks,a boat stranded on the beach and yes a very Orange Blog...Haha...Yup,its correct! Lets dwell deeper now and don't worry,don't be afraid! It won't bite larh!

Okay,pay attention to that little boat...Its stranded on the beach,it can't continue on its journey into the ocean because the tide has retreated,meaning the water has retreated and theres no water.It also revealed many dangerous big rocks right? And the sun is setting,meaning it'll be dark soon and dangerous to venture out into the ocean...Moreover the little boat is tied up...So what now? The boat is stuck right? It doesn't have anywhere to go now,its simply Stuck there at that spot on the beach...

So whats my point?

Well,you know,sometimes in life,don't you think we're just like that little boat? Having nothing else to do,where to go,just being Stuck stuck stuck...I bet we've encountered situations like this before...When all we can see infront of us are just obstacles upon obstacles and being held back by our pass...Like that little boat in the picture...Held back by a rope and with plenty of obstacles infront of it...Stuck...I myself must admit,i am too stuck like that little boat...

But you know what? Even though,all may seem lost,with all those obstacles ahead,and with our past holding us back,there is still Hope...

Its true,that the little boat is stuck,but there is one thing that it can do,To Wait Patiently..Yes Wait...Because,as long as it can last through the night till the first light of day breaks through,the sun will rise once again and with that bringing the tide back...And what about the rope holding it back? Simple,by just letting it go by untying the knot that is holding it back...

Sometimes it just seems so helpless to struggle,to panick and to worry...Where the solution is sim ple,to calm down and wait patiently for God to intervene and for things to be made right...But its also said,how can things be done when we do nothing? Its also true,but when all seems hopeless? What else can we do than to just wait patiently for God...

Like that little boat,all it needed to do,was just to wait patiently,and with that,everything will turn out well for it...

This picture is something to me,and that is why,its up there,(And also its looks nice and romantic larh! Ahem ahem) anyways,but it also brings a deep meaning to the picture...That at times,we may be stuck in life,not knowing of where to go,but theres always a way out when we wait patiently for God to do his works...

Like this little boat,where i don't even know where in the World it is now...Maybe Langkawi? Hawaii? Thailand? India? LOL, Who knows?

Anyways,well these are my few hundred words of the picture...

Whats YOUR words of the picture?

Febuary febuary...

2011-02-28T20:05:00.001-08:00

Ahh,its been a long time since i've written anything here...The month of Febuary has been one dull and boring month for me...Stayed at home practically most of the time,BUT! I also learnt many new things...Wahaha,like,Cooking! Yes,i can cook! Not Maggi Mee cook larh but actually cook REAL food larh...Because,mum has already started her work,so with that,i have to take care of myself,and cooking is one of them...Although it isn't 100% perfect larh,sometimes has its problems,but it still can be eaten...Do you dare to eat? haha... Also been driving around a lot..I would say my driving skills has improved,but at times,still has its minor problems,but none that of MAJOR problems,haven gotten to any ACCIDENTS...Pro lerh? haha...And have actually started going to the Gym after much procrastination...

But life has been like its normal routine,wake up,go sleep again,bath,cook,computer,exercise,dinner,tv,sleep and this continues on and on...I guess this is my post-spm holidays huh? The holidays i dreamed so much of my SPM days when i was studying like a Mad Man...Oh well,going to get my results soon...

But man,,i don't know why but yet i'm still undecided what to do? where to go? Even though its just Pre-U foundation but its still important right? I know SAM & AUSMAT are out cause i'll be in the March intake,have to catch up and there'll be TONS & TONS of assignments to do,my friends advice me not to do it either...Form 6 is out of the question for Science,its just Crazily Tough and have stories of friends utterly failing it,Arts,that is my results is bad,but i don't want to maintain the same kind of lifestyle like all these years...I want a change in life,meet new people,new place new things,or else i'll remain stagnant for the rest of my life and never grow...A-levels is another option,but the problems is Maths in A-levels,which is tougher than Add Maths in SPM is the main problem...I practically fail most of my Add Maths papers,and my Chemistry is kind of weak...Don't know,and for Foundation in Science,not sure either...

I am still undecided,sigh...After such a long time of thinking,still back in square one...I guess theres nothing much more i can do then to just wait for my results to be out huh? To be patient and wait for the Lord to intervene...Hoping that everything turns out well and fine in the end...

Lappy!

2011-02-09T18:48:00.000-08:00

Yes! I've finally gotten my very FIRST VERYOWN Notebook,wahaha...Its been a long wait,and finally...Its a Toshiba Satelite L645...The Prussian Blue colour of it looks Awesome,and the inside is quite good either...Everythings good so far,only the webcam,is kinda lousy,T.T,but its a good lappy...But.am still grateful i have this lappy...Yup...

Actually,before this i have been researching ALOT about what or which is the Best lappy which i can buy...Been asking around too...But realize right,in the end,i totally didn't research about this Model at all,but in the end,just bought it...

I guess,i am reminded again,that we can plan as much as we want,but in the end of everything,it is God whom decides everything...Plan as we may,but God is the one that decide...

And this is one clear example,bought this lappy Spontaneously...Haha..Still am rather new with this notebook,will continue to explore with it,Chaoz!

Decisions

2011-02-05T07:17:00.000-08:00

Well,i'm coming ever more closer to the point where i need to make a vital and decisive decision for my future on where i am going to go and when...I have an idea already of what i'm going to do,but,but don't know why still am hesitant in taking that leap of faith...Even though gone through so many other options,thinking,thinking and thinking...But still am left undecisive and confuse...Its not easy...Don't really have much time left...Gosh but it isn't easy...Have to buckle up,and start being decisive and most importantly of all Trust in God and to Never look back,but Forward...Not an easy task,but do i have a choice? No,onwards bah!

My YMI Experience

2011-02-04T04:39:00.000-08:00

Ah yes YMI...Looking back,i'm glad that i made the decision to be apart of this years YMI...Although at first right,didn't really wanted to go,or was more or less sceptical about it...But i'm glad that i was apart of this years YMI batch...For 3 years i've seen 3 different teams coming and going and this year,finally is my turn to be apart of it.

Well,first started with having a week of training in Kluang and more or less getting to know the other people joining this year...Haha,and you know what? This year there were 8 people,2 of them were guys,and both this two are NOT from Kluang...That is both me and Joshua...Yup,kinda funny...But it was Awesome getting to know each one of them and their truly a Great Bunch of People...

I was teamed up with Joshua and we were sent to Harvest Center,KL...Its basically a school for children of refugees and underprivileged children...You see,because they are refugees,they can't study in normal Government schools...To add on,private schools are known to be expensive...Hence,HC provides these kids with education from primary 1 up to form5...

Even though,i didn't get the chance to teach the children,but it was still a good experience for me...Did tons of stuffs like carrying stuffs,painting,renovation,assembling furnitures,and so on and so forth...Once working from morning till 9pm!

I guess this experience really allowed me to get out of my comfort zone...Been away from home for almost A Month...Learn many new things,or more or less done many things i usually never do...An eye opener i would say...

Even with YMI ending already,and now life going back to its norm,i would say i'm missing the experience bah...Also enjoyed the experience in getting to know new people,and old friends even more...Guess that its a memory to stay...

My YMI Experience (Pictures)

2011-02-03T22:52:00.000-08:00

2010

2010-12-30T08:45:00.000-08:00

Ah yes,this is the Last Day of 2010,31st December 2010...And Woah i got to say,Time Flies!!!

This year,has been one hack of a year..Had many Good memories,and also Bad ones...As i sit hear,writing about the year of 2010,can't help but feel as if in a sense of Awe...That,i remember,started of the year with,Ahhh,hear comes 2010! Now,wah,here comes 2011! Okay,haha i may sounds kinda emo or nostalgic now,but ya...Haha..

2010 has been good...Finished my Secondary School Life and my SPM...Made many new friends and learnt and experience many things...And yes,i am 1 year older already,same as everyone...More wiser i hope...xD

As 2011 dawn nearer and nearer,i hope that it'll be a good year ahead,so as anyone would want it to be lah...Hope that i will be able to grow even more stronger and wiser mentally,spiritually and emotionally...If asked,what is my new year's resolution? Well,a lot lol,and things which are not meant to be said here,*cough cough* if you know what i mean,xD...

Anyways,just want to wish everyone Happy New Year and all the Best with your Life!!!

Once upon a Time

2010-12-29T07:54:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time,there was a little boy named Jack...He had moved together with his parents from a land far far away to another new land and lived in a town nearby...They settled down and worked hard...They were accepted by the Town people and lived a happy life...However,as time slowly progress,things started to change...Many things happened,and both Jack and his parents grew weary of the town...Jack no longer felt at home and had no one to turn to in the town..The same was to their parents...Jack's Father was appointed as vice president of the town,but was constantly bullied by the president...Moreover,none of the villagers appreciated the contribution and effort of Jack's Father...So,Jack's Father resign,as for the better of the town...However,people in the town started gossiping about Jack's Father,that he quited and gave up his responsibility...The family had no one to turn to and were weary of the town...So they made many visitations to many other towns...Jack found and made many friends and was very happy every time when he was with them...How Jack wished that his House which took much time and effort to built,would be able to magically move to the other town as he could be with his friends...However,he knew,dreams are dreams...Jack parents had relatives in the other town and friends too,and they were happy...But as time progress,they realise that it wasn't just God's will...Jack's family had decisions & choices to make...What they did next is...To Be Continued...

Day Adventure to Singapore!!!

2010-12-29T06:18:00.000-08:00

Ahhh Yes,Singapore!!! Haha,i am glad that i was able to visit Singapore today and boy did i had a good time! (I know you must be thinking,why did you post pictures of a Christmas tree and some Atom like thingy,well most of the pictures with my friends lah,want to see go Facebook,xD) Anyways,haha had a Great time!!! Went to different places in Singapore from Orchard Road to Sentosa! Yup!!!

I would say,this trip has change my perspective of the (City)...You know,before right,i thought the MRT was like totally a KILLER...But after today,taking MRT the WHOLE Day,realise its actually very Convenient,generally the Whole Transport System lah...And yes,i FINALLY know how to take the MRT ady!! Yeapy!! Okay,maybe not 100% lah,but agak agak know how it works and Boleh!!!

Some of the places i went was,firstly Republic Polytechnic...Even though,my friend said its the smallest Poly,but it actually impress me lol...Haha,the facilities are nice,and Food,(Awesome) and Library Big...Then on to Orchard Road...You know,i've always seen it in the Tv,Orchard Road this,Orchard Road that,but FINALLY was able to actually go there...Got to say,there are SO MANY Branded shops darted along the road...Only do Window Shopping lah,cz too Expensive ady...Haha..Then took picture of that Big Christmas Tree up there...

But i guess,one of the Highlights is Going to Sentosa...You know,we payed 3 Dollars SG to go to Sentosa via EZLink Card....Which is like RM7.20...And when we set foot on the MRT,IT RAINED BADLY!!! LOL,didn't get the chance to visit the Beach,T.T in the end,went back in tatters *cough cough*...My money flew away from my hand,T.T,Oh well,Stuffs happens huh

Finally was able to eat SUBWAY!!! Yes,FINALLY! Haha,its nice man,enjoyed the Sandwich and we were the Last Customers...xD Ohya,and one of Yi Chiun(Friend) first impress is he thought i was a Singaporean...LOL? And was surprise that i wasn't one...Okay????

Anyways,had a Great time today...A Big Thanks to Yi Chiun for being our Tour Guide and Marissa for being there with us,*claps claps*...But got to say,was kinda disappointed that a few friends couldn't join us today...Well i guess stuffs happens right? And we can't always expect what we want to happen all the time...Anyways,till next time,Take Care and God Bless!!! =)

A Batu Pahat Journey

2010-12-27T05:46:00.000-08:00

Ah Yes,Batu Pahat...Haha,well i spent my pass 11days and 10nights in my hometown(hometown lah,cause everytime i would go back,and all my relatives are there,xD) and got to say,it was AWESOME!!! Really,i enjoyed myself and am here to blog about my sort of journey lah in back in BP!!!

Well,firstly,as you know,Christmas has just passed right? I'm sure you had a Good time and so did i...I am grateful that i was able to join the BP youths with their caroling around BP...Although,i'm not really their church member lah,but they opened their arms and allowed me to carol with them...At first,was hesitant,but after much persuation,went and got to say,it was a awesome experience...Enjoyed caroling with them and also helping in playing guitar in the carols...Haha,at one point,we were all asked to go up on stage to perform in BP Mall...I was like extremely hesitant to go up,because its in one of the church performance schedule and wasn't apart of their church...But i got to say,i was pretty touch when a few of them told me,Ahyah,so what if your not part of our church? But your part of our YF...So yup,it felt great and am glad to went caroling with them..xD

Besides,almost everyday isn't a Dull Day...Went out with friends almost everyday,watch movies,went lepakking around,went Mamak stalls,Makan makan,join yf activities and climbed Hutan Lipur which is like a Mount,or Hill i guess...Haha,but trust me,its a challenge to climb it unless you are FIT as a horse,xD...

But one of the highlights of this trip is that of my Grandma...Well,i am thankful to God that both me and my mum were able to bring my Grandma to Church during Christmas...At first,she was hesitant,but after much persuasion,she went...And you know,many times Satan tried to stopped her from going,and i mean really...But thank God she went...The Pastor's Sermon that day was Awesome...I knew,his sermon were directly speaking to her heart and i believe,the Seed has already been planted...Glad my Grandma enjoyed herself and this is but another step conquered to Save Her,which i believe will happen...Pray and hope for the best huh? =)

Not to forget my cousins! Haha,anyways it was good to meet up and catch up with my cousin,although unfortunately wasn't able to meet up with one of her...But yup,same as to my uncles and other relatives...

Well,this trip to BP has been awesome...I am thankful that the BP Youths accepted me and treated me as one of their own...Really had tons of fun with them...Guess going to miss them,haha...Anyways,thats sort of my story lah,till next time,CHAOZ!!! xD

A Batu Pahat Journey(PICTURES)

2010-12-27T03:28:00.000-08:00

2010-12-20T07:52:00.000-08:00

You know,Sometimes we want something sooo very much,but God just doesn't give it to us...You know why? Because God knows what is best for us and thus only wants the Best for us...For me,i agree with this totally,but seriously,at times is very Tough...I'm sure we have all experience it before,haha like when we were like kids,we want ice cream,ice cream,ice cream,but our parents wouldn't give it to us...So what we do? BEG,CRY SCREAM do anything or whatever to get what we want...

Maybe this doesn't apply to us now lah,we're old ady,if we do that its like,Dude,whats wrong with you? Haha...Anyways,haiz,many times i find it very hard to accept it...I know,God always knows what is Best and only wants the Best,and God sees Beyond what we see now,but its very Hard at times...Wanting something so badly,but not being able to have it...

The worst is learning to accept it...Guess,i need to Now learn to Accept God's will and Not to go against what He has decided...

Lord,i understand its not about what i want all the time,because you know what is Best for me...Help me to learn to accept your Will and not look Back...

Esplosion Camp..

2010-12-14T05:48:00.000-08:00

Well,i'm baaaaaaaaack~!! Yup,after a four days and three nights camp in Rompin Beach Resort for 2010 ESPLOSION CAMP...Well,what can i say about it? Its was just simply AWESOME~! Had a Great Time~! Learnt many things,made new friends and renewed old friendships...Awesome~!

Well,i would say the sermon which both Isaac and Ryan preached about was good...It really challanged the Youths to change...But i myself got to say,at first was kind of sceptic that it wouldn't be a Pastor sharing in Camp this year...But still,it was Awesome...Learnt that,you don't have to be like a Pastor or Full Time Church Worker to do Great things for God and the Need for Change in ourselves...Besides,i went to the Advance Apologetics workshop,and got to say,i was completely Astonished and Blown away with the worshop...Never have i ever though,but won't really write it here lah,for some reasons,but ya,it REALLY opened my eyes...And am glad i had attended the worshop...

Other than that,i extremely enjoyed the worship...I guess,it was been quite long since i really lift up my hands in worship or was really come in Awe in worship to God...However,i was really able to worship God,lifting my hands high up in worship,and just soak into the presence of worshiping God....By the way,A Very Good Job to all the Worship Team Members~! You guys did a good Job~!

Well,made many new friends this esp camp too...And am glad to become friends with them and also renewed old friendships i guess,truly a good experience...

And i have also learnt something about Humbleness...Before the camp,i was sort of disappointed i guess? Cause a friend of mine was chosen to be a leader...And i was like,Huh???? I guess,i came to the camp with a why not me? Blablabla attitude...But really,i have been humbled...I realize that I AM NOT AS GOOD AS I THOUGH I WAS...And to never underestimate nor judge another person...Yup...

And i have also learnt one Important thing,that is from my group leader,Paulus,*cough cough* haha...That is,sometimes right,we want something so badly,but God does not allow us to have it...Because God knows what is best for us and only wants the best for us...

Haaaaih,have to totally agree with this...I guess,it isn't God's will bah or timing i guess...Only God knows and he will decide...Wanted to,but i guess it isn't God's will...

Well,now i got to go and FOCUS on my Bible Knowledge Exam this coming 16 December...Have to STUDY STUDY STUDY ady,then shall be Free~!! Free~! HWAITING~!

P.S ,will ad pictures after my BK test cause really lah,no time now..Take Care~!

Nostalgia....

2010-12-08T06:23:00.000-08:00

Yes~! School is over,SPM,is History~! Wait,huh? Nolah~! Its not yet all over~! I still have One FINAL subject,which is Bible Knowledge...Yes,Bible Knowledge which is due on the 16 of December...You know,only two people in my entire school took BK,and i'm one of them~! Haha,well,but i would say,i feel lazy,and also tired to study lah,been studying like MAD for my SPM,want to relax lah~! But,still have to finish this last few hundred yards of the race...SO CLOSE~!

But i would say,i am Proud to take this subject as a stand for Christ...Yup...Taking this subject,okay lah for my Mum,=P and also for God..

But boy,do i feel so FREE and RELAX now~! I've finally finish my 9 papers~! From all the way from bm,bi,sej,moral,maths,add maths,physics,chemistry and finally today,Biology~! Yes~!!! Sweet sweet Freedom~! Not yet ofcorse...Soon~!

Well,today was i would say the last day of school for me...Cause its the last day everyone will actually be together or you'll be able to see everyone...

After i finished my Biology paper,i was basically sitting down there,and thought,Huh,this is really the last huh? I looked at the clock,a few minutes left,and to the class and my classmates...Memories of my time in Omega,just came rushing back into my mind...Was remembered of the Good,Bad,Stupid and Sweet memories...

Well,guess a chapter in life closes huh? My life in secondary school has(almost) ended...Whats next? The WORLD~! Thats big ain't it? The World? Am still blur about what i am going to do after this...Guess only God can show me bah...

Besides,esp camp is coming~! Haha,Awesome~! Me actually going for esp is really something God did for me...At first,i couldn't go cause BK was put on a date such that it clashes with BK,but some how lah,It changed~! And i am able to go~! Haha,Awesome Huh~!

Anyways,got to go and study now...Haaaa,still have to study study,just abit more,just abit more...Well,all the best to everyone and Jiayou~!

Time Flies~! (12-11-2010)

2010-11-12T07:21:00.000-08:00

Woah,time flies~! In a way,can't believe that how fast time has pass...Today,has 2 significant events...Firstly,its the Last Day of School~! Woah,after 6 years of going to school,with the school bell ringing,getting scolded by teachers,homeworks and so on...Woah,no More~! Wait,no more?

I remembered,i used to DREAM of this day,of graduating from school and going out into this world,a FREE MAN...Now

its like,wait what? *Pause*...

This pass 6 years of high school has been just Awesome...There were both Good,and Bad memories...Have grown physically,emotionally and spiritually...I guess this is the process of growing up huh?

Besides,you know i never felt closer to my school friends ever before then only until the end...Weird huh? And all my teachers...Woah...All the teachers who has faithfully taught me these past two years in Omega...Really got to thank them..

Secondly,its also the last cell group~! I have been leading this group for about a year now...Its truly good to see this people grow up,some 3 years already~!

I am glad to

have been their cg leader,and have lead them...Although its true,that there were also both good and

bad times,but at the end,ts really gratifying to see them grow up..

Well,i guess Chapter in Life closes while a new one opens..Whats next? College? University? Hmmph,hehe,God knows lah~! Haha...As of what my Sej teacher said,History has become History~!

Anyways,got to work hard,10days left before SPM~! Grrrr~! Jiayou Hwaiting~!!!

Doing...

2010-09-24T08:39:00.000-07:00

In Matthew Chapter 7,Verse 12,It says Do unto others whatever you would like them to do unto you...Sounds rational huh? Do to people how you would want them to do to you...

I know that we cannot follow this statement,just because we want others to do the same to us...I know,that we follow this not because of others but because for OURSELVES...To be a Better Person...

But sometimes,it can really be a heartache...You have done so much for a friend,yet he/she just takes it TOTALLY for granted...I won't deny it,but sometimes i myself am like that....

But i'm talking about the people whom you have Clearly helped and Blessed so much...The people whom you have profoundly helped...

Sometimes,i get so tired of realizing that i have been, "Doing Unto others" in vain,in that sense that they totally don't appreciate your action...I mean,take this for an instance,One day,you and your friend are at a bus stop...He doesn't have enough money for the bus...So you help your friend out...But the next day,both of you exchange places,and you don't have enough money...You expect your friend to help you out equally,but it doesn't happen... It can get disappointing and discouraging at times,but i know i have to LEARN to,

i)Accept the fact that i cannot always EXPECT others to do to me like how i have done to them...

ii)Grow and be more Mature to realize that i am not doing this for others sake,to have them repay the same to be,but for God and for my OWN sake to be a Better Person...

iii)Change and Learn too to Appreciate others even more...

As it is said in 1 John 4:7:Dear Friends,let us continue to love one another,for love comes from God.Anyone who loves is a child of God and knows God...

Well,have to try my best,to be the best i can...Hwaiting~!!!

SURPRISE~!!!!!!

2010-09-24T08:14:00.000-07:00

SURPRISE~! I was surprised just now by my CG Members and my Mum with a Happy Belated Birthday after CG~! Haha,it caught me TOTALLY off guard man...TOTALLY... I didn't know they were planning to SURPRISE ME~! Gosh,usually i'll know one,but this time i don't~! LOL~! Ahh,yes i do feel touch...Haha...

I have been hoping that any of my friends would have surprise me for my birthday...And finally it had happened today...

Well,I don't really bother about how MANY had came but the HEART or Efford taken...And yes,i am grateful of what they did...

Well,i really Appreciate their actions and am Grateful for them...

Thanks Mum and Guys~!!!!

18th Birthday~!!!!

2010-09-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

Ahhh~! 18th Birthday~! Many say the 18th birthday symbolizes the beginning of Adulthood...That means,i am a Man already,not Boy,so call me Man,man...Haha,but a very a YOUNG MAN i am indeed,one who still needs much more learning and maturing to go in Life...

Well,something happened today which is just simply Awesome...As me and my mum were approaching Kenny Rogers,(Yes that is where i ate,and as you can see from the picture down there,that is what i ATE,every single bit of it,Yummy~!!! =). ) We randomly settled down on a table and placed our order...As we were talking,mum realised,we're sitting on Table 18...Eh? Table 18? Today is my 18 Birthday? We randomly sat down and sat on Table 18!!! Coincidence huh? Haha,i think NOT~! Over all the Other tables,we don't know why,but we sat there~! AWESOME HUH?!!!!! Haha,Cool~!

Well,today has been a good day i would say.Enjoyed it,even though wasn't really able to celebrate with my friends,but spending time with my mum at night made up for it...Haha,yes i am Old already,Old Beven....xD Well,but i am LEGAL to Drink Alcohol now~! Wahahaha~! But don't worry,i won't be drinking hard any time soon or at all...Too much is not good,xD,and my tolerance in taking Alcohol is Bad...Haha...

Well,a big THANKS To All Those who had Wished me Happy Birthday Today~!

Thanks to the people whom also had made that WONDERFUL CARD of the Despicable Me Cartoon and sang Happy Birthday to me...Thanks~! Even though i may be getting older,but i know i will continue to grow in the Lord...

HWAITING~!!!!!!!!!!

Holidays so Faaar~!!

2010-09-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

Ahhh,actually i wanted to post more pictures,but dono why,the up loader thing takes SOOO LOONG to upload,so ya,i give up...T.T

Annyways,HAPPY MALAYSIA DAY~!!! YEAA~! But,it isn't what i'm going to talk about lah,cehhhh...Haha...Here to talk about my Holidays SOOO FAAR...

Well,even though its not yet over lah,but want to Cerita ceritakan so far...Yup,this past holidays has been AWESOME~! But but,it isn't all FUN lah,also Studied,studied studied~!!!

First was the trip to Orang Asli,woah,got to say it was Awesome man...Really had a good time,and finally get to meet up with the kids again...Awesome~! We sing,worship and played with the kids...Nice~! And also had some fishing~! It was nice,glad to see some of my friends having FUN fishing...Hope can get to bring them fishing again~!

After that went back to Batu Pahat~! Yes~! My Kampung~! Stayed with my grandma,and met up with my relatives~!...This is the first time,going back to Batu Pahat and actually Studying Hard~! Usually i'll just waste my life there,haha...Well,glad was able to go out with my brothers for a short lepak,and able to join the youths to UK Farm and also the Change Your World concert...Haha it was Awesome~! But by far,the best of that trip,was being able to make friends and bond with them.Moreover,having my dearest cousin to be able to join us,i hope she enjoyed herself lol...xD...Now that is Priceless...Had a great time...

And now,i'm here back in JB...Went and studied with a couple of friends...Haha,really thank a FRIEND for helping me,although,i don't know whether i learnt much lah today,*cough cough*,but it was GOOD fellowship,Good time~!...

Haa,should be studying now,i know,but well,here i am blogging...Haha,i have so much to study...And yes,i am back by so much...Well,will give it my All~!!! Have to just remember to,Work Hard,and PRAY~!!!!

Yup,to all my Friends out there~!! Who are going to face their,SPM,A-Level,PMR,UPSR or any thing,all Da best~! HWAITING~!!!!!!!!!!

HWAITING~!!!!

2010-09-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

Ahhh~! 73 days before my SPM~! Yes...Time is running up soon,and i still have much to study...I have been studying HARD this past week,but the problem is i ADVANCE so LITTLE...Haiz...I finally woken up,that need to study hard hard,but is it enough time? I hope so...

With the help of my mum,been searching around for where i should go...Before this,only considered going for Form 6 Arts...But,after researching,realise my OPTIONS are still open...It depends ALL on my SPM results...Where i will go..Haaaar,theres a University,not bad,but EXPENSIVE...But its really nice...I have to get GOOD results to enter it,or get as many A's i can so it'll be cheaper and won't burden my mum financially that much...I HAVE TO WORK HARD~!!!!!!!! If i want to be what i want to be~! That Uni is nice~!!! Have to work hard hard hard now~! No more Slacking Beven~! You must do your best~! Never give up~! Work Hard Beven~!!! HWAITING~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-07T08:48:00.000-07:00

Haaa...I had been Such a Moron lately...Haaar,blinded blinded blinded~!...Haaar,its only when you finally Wake Up and Realise,man,you had been such a Fool man...Haaar,yes,i thank God i have woken up...Goodness...Haaa,have to look forward,not the past...FOCUS BEVEN~! FOCUS~!

VOOM~!

2010-09-03T09:32:00.001-07:00

Ahhh,time is passing so fast~! Recently,have been contacting a childhood friend of mine...Haha,its good lah,to Catch up and talk again after so many years..She has changed,SO SO MUCH....But through this,realise,WOW time has really flew lol~! I can still recall when i used to play and talk with her when we were kids,playing her racing car game and so on...But now,grown ups ady,haha~!...Not only her,but all my other childhood friends...All grown ups ady..Everyone going here and ther,to College,Universities,other countries and so on...

What about me then? Well,I'm going to be 18 years old soon...I can Drive already,and will be considered as an Adult sooner or later as my birthday is approaching...I myself am not very THAT certain where i shall be going next year or about my future...God will plan bahz...

We all will still have to continue on living life....Will surrender it to God's hand bah...Wherever he may lead me,i shall follow...

As what Pastor Sunia had shared this past Sunday,since we have Accepted our Lord Jesus into our Life,he has become the Lord over our lives...And thus,we do not have to right to decide,but it is He who decides for us...For his plan,purpose and ways are greater than ours...

Yup,Jiayou,Hwaiting~!!!

2010-09-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

Love can be as Sweet as Heaven,but it can also Hurt like Hell...

SMILE~!!!

2010-08-28T09:30:00.000-07:00

Smile,smile,smile yes~! Smiling is good,it makes us more attractive,changes our mood,is contagious,relieves stress,boost our immune system,helps us stay positive and the list goes on...Yes,smiling is Good,i know...Haha...

However,i don't know why,its just not my nature to =)...Haha...I've been told by many,different people from different places before,Beven,SMILE~!!! Yes,i've been ask to SMILE~!!! Many times before...But yes,i did try to smile,i mean try to wear a smile...But many times,the smile i wear,is indifferent,still looks to same..Awwwh~!

I wish that i can smile more,yea,don't really like to look moody,gloomy,indifferent or even SAD~! When i'm ACTUALLY in a Good Mood~!

Ohh,theres a another thing...Hmmph,the other day,was going through my stuff,and found a piece of paper...Its like a small note a friend gave to me last year in a Youth Camp...It says

Hope says to the Impossible:Possible,

You are made by God for Great things,

Never Give Up,

Greater things are yet to come...

After reading it,it really hit me...What my friend wrote,really hits home and means ALOT...Haven kept in contact with,he/her quite awhile,wel...but the note that person gave me,really means alot...Awesome huh? Inspiring...

Have to remind myself to Smile,even if i don't have any reasons too,for me,not an easy task...Haar,try lol,HWAITING~!!!

P.S ,pls help me remember to smile...=)

FESTIVAL OF PRAISE 2010~!

2010-08-01T07:29:00.000-07:00

WooHoo~!!! Came back from Singapore today at 12.30am...Woots~! It had been one AWESOME experience...Finally,i was able to go Singapore without actually having to only go to Changi Airport...It was one Awesome experience~!

Why? Well,was able to see,feel and hear Planetshakers perform LIVE~! YES~! LIVE~! Its totally Awesome~! Because i've been listening,playing and leading many of their worship songs for a long time...Finally,get to experience them in real LIFE~! AWESOME~! Honestly,they can really lead worship...Their awesome...Really one of the best moments in my life,being lead into worship by PLANETSHAKERS~!!!...Could really feel the presence of God...Hey,guess thats why,THEIR PLANETSHAKERS~! PLANETSHAKERS~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Don Moen was also there leading worship...To be honest,i'm not a Don Moen fan,but his a good worship leader...I like the song,Mi Corazon that he lead...Its nice...The pastors sermon was also good,topic about hope...Yup...

Moreover,finally get to experience a pinch of Singaporean life and passing through the custom~! Woohoo~! Got to give a big shout of Thanks to Yi Chiun for bring me and Marissa through the custom and in SG...Joel too,for accomponing us all the way to the MRT at Bishan...Haha,if not who knows what would have happened man...Besides,finally get to sit the MRT~! Haha,the last time i sat in one was in KL,but it was when i was a kid man...But MRT experience its nice i guess,found out 2 things in the MRT...1,when theres a empty space,you have to quickly move to get it,cannot take your own sweet tim if not someone will get it...2nd,can get quite sleepy in the MRT...Haha...And,the experience of everyone squishing like sardines in a can in the MRT...Haha...But after some time,got a headache in the MRT...Haha,guess cause couldn't keep up with the fast pace in Singapore man...Moreover,too bad couldn't meet up with Dennis and Olive...Haha....Next time bahz...xD

But got to say,at first when we came into SG,i was impress by SG...Yes i was...Why? Well,its well maintained,you don't have Ah Long papers sticking up anywhere,clean,good transportation,the food is quite healthy and there are paths ways for you to walk beside the road...Its nice...Well,by saying this i should be in Love in SG rite? However,that isn't the case...Even though,its true,i really don't agree with many Policies or things that my Government has put upon,nor do i like somethings in my country,but even though,Singapore its nice,to be honest when i was in the stadium...With about 20thousand people there....I felt awkward...I felt awkward that this isn't my country...Felt weird when the Pastors asked us to pray for Singapore...Felt,this isn't Tanah Air aku(Not my Homeland)...Singapore is nice,but when i finally step foot right back into Malaysian soil,i felt so RELIEVE to finally be back into my Country,my Homeland...

Well,this experience has made me realize,there isn't anywhere better than home...I love my country Malaysia even though there are many things in this country i strongly disagree with,but i still Love my country...Malaysia ialah tanah air aku...

Yup,i really enjoyed this experience...It was really a good experience...Enjoyed every moment of it...Truly,i will remember this for the rest of my life...Haha...Awesome...=)

Pride...Hmmph...

2010-07-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

Ahhh,yes Pride...Pride is a universal thing huh? I guess most of us have experience it before,that feeling you get,(I'm not specifically referring to someone ah) xD, but generally,the feeling like,i'm taller than you,i can play basketball better than you,i can play guitar better than you,i am more good looking than you and esatra estra...Yup...

You know,the thing is sometimes we just allow ourselves to think just that...To think how great we are,and that there is no one better than us...Pride huh? Moreover,pride is the thing that allows us to look down on others...Kinda bad huh? But true...

Many times we,especially me allow ourselves to think how great we are...Only looking to what is in front of us however oblivious to looking over the horizon...Yup,its a thing that many of us deny but in fact its true...

You know,sometimes we just need to be humiliated,embarrassed or humbled once awhile...Why? So that we can slap ourselves to wake up,and just really examine and question ourselves...Have i been proud?

God can use even the most simplest of ways to humble us...And God did that on me...Realize,how easy it is for us to think greatly of ourselves...We may tell our juniors many times,Do Not Be Proud,Must Always be Humble...But the question lies in us ourselves,the Seniors or Leaders,am i not the same? Its a deep question,but i think its a question worth asking ourselves...

There this saying,it goes like this,

Never be too Proud of who you are or what you are...Because in the end of every game of chess,even the Kings and Soldiers goes into the same Box...

For me,this saying hits home and makes me think too...

Yup,indeed pride is something we can so easily fall into and even not realize about it...Guess its something i have to take care of even more...

Freedom~!

2010-07-18T23:52:00.000-07:00

YESSS~!!! EXAMS ARE OVER~! FINALLY~! WOOHOO~! This has been one LONG Exam...15 days of sitting for paper and about 1 month of complete study,which means come back,and study study study...Finally~! YES can get to relax~! Wahahaha...I'm so Relief man~! I'm sure all my friends who sat for the test were too~! It was really tiring...

Haven't been blogging for a long time,well cause was BUSY BUSY BUSY~! YES~!

I'm now looking forward to RELAX this week...Want o start Exercising,continue on with writing my song,Guitaring and just simply RELAXING~! YESSS~!

Although this is a SHORT break,but well,gonna enjoy the best i can~!

WOOHOOO~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

2010-07-11T06:10:00.000-07:00

God,your my only Deliver...You are my only Hope...You are my All in All...

Holidays are Over~!

2010-06-20T07:48:00.000-07:00

These past two weeks has been a total Blast~! I enjoyed it soo much~! But kinda sad with the fact that school is going to reopen...For me,i'm not sad that school is going to reopen,is that SPM is coming ever so close and there so much left for me to study...Quite concern about my studies but i know i have to ADD OIL~! Or in other worlds,JiaYou~!

These past Holidays,i am grateful that i was able to,(according to cronology)

1.Able to have Chi Yong with me,(a true brother man)

2.Join the Youth Camp Organized by Grace Church Batu Pahat...Really had a great time there...

3.Went badminton and was able to meet up with all my Perling Buddies...

4.Gone to City Square with,Marissa,Hui Woon,Yi Chiun,Chi Yong and Rong Jie and hang out there...

5.Youth Badminton Fellowship...

6.Having Samuel to stay over my place,talk,guitar and Swimming~!

7.Then the next week,studied...

It has been fun,moreover if you realized,7~! God's number~! Haha...Even though it may not seem that but its really fun for me~!

Have to start studying after that Holidays...Hope i can pull it off...Jiayou~! =)

Are we,Christian ready for Persecution?

2010-06-18T09:01:00.000-07:00

You know,its kind of funny...We,Christians now are so Blessed.Why?..Well are able to go to church freely and any time we like...There won't be a Mob of people storming at our doorstep wanting to drag us out...There won't be people trying to mob us or catch us and beat us up or kill us...We are sososoSOOO bless as Christians now...We live in a country that allows us to worship our God freely...Yes,we are so bless...

But the downright fact is that many of us have grown all soo Spoiled as Christians...We take our faith not seriously...To youths,we may wear it like Social Symbol,Oh I'm a Christian,you are too? Ohyah...Going to camps,making other Christian Friends...Enjoying life as a Christian...We may treat God,as second class,rather to put earthly desires first,or our Boyfriends or Girlfriends as number 1...We may treat God's law as they were nothing,even though we know what is right and wrong...Many of us have grown all so spoiled...

Even in this century now,there are dozens of Christians all over the world Suffering while we enjoy ourselves Laughing,Enjoying and Fellowshipping...We can say publicly that we are Christians while many Brothers and Sisters in Christ in this World suffer because they bear the name (CHRISTIANS)...They are experiencing Persecution to the highest extend...That is where their TRUE FAITH will Shine...

I'm not slandering us...We are blessed...But the truth is,sooooSOOO many of us are so Spoiled as Christians...We treat it as labels that we wear on in our Youth Fellowship,Church or Camps...But are we really Christians?

What will happen one day when everything turns upside down? That the mere whisper of Jesus will cause us much heart ache? What will happen when one day,people come knocking on our doorstep with weapons at hand,looking for us because we believe Jesus?

Will our faith or believe in Jesus stand straight? Or will we bend to the pressure?

What will we do when everything turns upside down? WHAT WILL YOU DO?

I hope and pray,that every Christian will see this video below...I believe that it will open our eyes and hearts...So i ask you,Brother or Sister in Christ to watch this video,and i pray that God will touch your heart like how he has touched mine...God Bless...

Batu Pahat Youth Camp 5th -7th June...

2010-06-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

Woah~!!! Came back from the Batu Pahat Youth Camp on the 5th to 7th June...Got to say,it was really Awesome~! Actually wanted to post it earlier,but couldn't so here i am to write about it~!

Well,at the very first...I didn't one to go at all...Cause,well i was alone...Cause,who likes to go into a place where like your the only one huh? Like totally Alien or so on...Got to thank God that Chi Yong came along with me,if not i would definitely not go...

Well,one the first day when we arrived,for me lah...It felt quite weird cause like everyone else there was strangers...But i got to say,i was really surprise that a couple of Youths actually came over and talked to us....Woah,really i was surprise...Cause,for me lah,it takes quite a lot of guts to approach a stranger and start talking to him or her...Yup...The other shocking thing was,Sern Wang,asked me and Chi Yong to be leaders and also help to serve in the band during the camp...Well,personally i was quite shock...I didn't expect to serve in the camp as anything...I expected to be a camp member...Well,it was quite a shock but got to say it was a awesome experience...Getting to help Jayn out with the group(Jazz) and playing with the worship team from Batu Pahat...It was a good experience...

Next,the games...Well,got to say that games was AWESOME~! I would say all of them were creative and extremely fun...The outdoors,indoors,icebreakers and indoor games were fun...It was good...Especially the Monopoly game and the games in the Botanical Garden...Nice~!

Next,will be the people...Well,the batu pahat youths were very friendly lol...Really,their friendly...It was good,i'm grateful for their hospitality to me and Chi Yong...After some time,i didn't feel like a stranger or alien but one of their members...Haha,it felt great~!!

Last,has got to be getting to know them...Well,all these while every time when i come back to Batu Pahat,i'm generally don't have any friends except my cousins and relatives lah,but yup...So if i'm going out of anything usually i'll go out with my mum...Well,its great to get to know the youths,haha so hope i can get to meet them out in BP...And hoping to join their YF soooon....

Well,overall its a good experience,made new friends and opened my eyes...Yup,next year definitely have to go again~! And p.s a BIG THANKS to the BP Youths,Thanks Ah~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

Sick~! Wait,Huh?

2010-05-27T05:21:00.000-07:00

I'm still sick...T.T ...Yup,after 1 week,still sick...But,it looks like i'm still the same...=.= Its totally lousy being sick...Can't do what you like nor eat what you like...Ahhh...I miss chocolate so much,nasi lemak and much more...I hope i'll be cured soon,T.T....

Hmmph,besides that,we had audition today...Well,it went,soso lah...Sadly,for Two is better than one,we didn't really make it...But for We'll be a Dream,okay lah...But got to say,was quite disappointed with the results...Well,we'll all get our results on Monday...Hope we do well...But,we did our best,so on its on,its a good thing right~! Jiayou bahz~!

Audition~!

2010-05-26T05:25:00.000-07:00

Gaaahhh~! Our band audition is tomorrow~! Woots...But i have to say,thank God we're prepared for it...Yup we are,we are...I'm quite surprise we can do it in quite a limited space of time...AWESOME~!

Tomorrows audition,woah,can't wait for it~! We'll be performing in front of of the Vice Principals i think? And maybe the principal,if i'm correct? Hmpph...But anyways,hope we do well! And pass it WOOTS~!

And don't bother about the picture,was looking for any cover picture and the best is this,so ya...JIAYOU~! =)

Mute~!

2010-05-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

Well,i have officially Lost my voice...Yup,i've lost my voice...Haha...Woke up today,pretty alright,but gradually as the day progressed,my voice started to disappear...And well,i practically can't speak...You'll just hear something like,Mmmmmhmmmmmmoooooo....Haha,never thought my soar throat would cause my voice to disappear...

Besides that,we had practice again today morning...Well,there was one hack of a discussion about the song choice...Thank God we've settle it already...But the funny thing is,many of my friends say that i can actually Sing? Me Singing? Haar? Wait a minute,ME? They suggested me being the main male singing,i'm like,WHAT? Me ah??? However,i rejected it,cause i know i can't sing,but my friends think differ...Even my mum sigh when she heard that they choose me,haha.....But,in my heart i do want to sing...Haha,it has been a childhood dream,me,Beven Lau Singing in a band...WOOTS~! That would be so cool~! But,nah i know my limits...

Or,just maybe,okay it may sound very silly lah,as i'v lost my voice,i'm hoping that,when i regain back my voice,Miraculously i can SING~! Okay,it may be thinking too far or just plain silly...But i do wish that it'll happen...Like a friend once said to me,Hope says to the Impossible POSSIBLE~! So,i'm here hoping bah,HOPE HOPE HOPE~! If not,i guess i'll just settle with playing the Guitar...That'll be enough...=)

Thats all folks,Chaoz~! =)

Sick~!

2010-05-20T07:32:00.000-07:00

Yes i am~! Woots~! At first when i woke up today morning,it felt okay...I felt good,but after that,WOOTS~! Felt completely horrible sia~! Moreover,the Air Con made everything worse...It was so COLD IN CLASS~! I was practically hugging my bag so closely and tightly...I even put my arms into the Bag...Haha...It would be a funny scene i guess...

I remembered,a few days ago,i said to my mum,Ahyah I'm strong,i don't get sick easily and the last time i was sick was last year...And Woots~! Look at me now,SICK sia...I think,its call,Pride before fall huh?

However,i'm feeling better now,but still sick lah,but thank God not feeling like how i felt in the morning,ZOMBIE~!

Well,besides me being sick,theres another Awesome thing coming up...Which is Performance next month...Yup,you've heard it...A couple of us from our class are going to be performing in school during some debate thing...WOOTS~! Thats COOL~! However,i got to say,we're still very disorganize and we need LOTS & LOTS MORE PRACTICE....Hope we can pull it off...

But i got to say,i was pretty hyped up about it...And was concern whether we'll be able to pull it off cause,eh in front of the whole school lerh~! Moreover,every time when theres an activity,our class will always just sit and watch...Now its different~! WOOHOO~! But a Friend told me,whats more important is us enjoying ourselves...And well,it hit me,and its true...Its much more important that we enjoy ourselves rather to get all tense and frustrated about it...If so,then whats the point huh? So you know who you are,haha a BIG THANKS~!

Well,hope i can be cure as soon as possible...Cause,common lah,who likes to be sick? It feels horrible huh? Like being like a Zombie walking around....Haha...Okay,thats all for now...Take Care~! =)

Lean on Me~!

2010-05-18T06:49:00.001-07:00

School...

2010-05-16T01:26:00.000-07:00

School...Some students hate it,wishing that they don't need to go to school,some love it,most adults loved their schooling and wish to relive it,while others are glad to have finish school...Everyone has their own opinion of school...

Its hard to get over the fact that things do change...I guess i've been having the mindset that i want school life to be the same as that of my previous school...And thus,complain about how things aren't like that of the past...Now thats just being immature...I should accept things that it is even if its not how i want it to be and not complain about how i want it to me...Whats the point? No point in complaining where nothing will change huh?

Should try to accept how things are,if not,i'm just wasting my life...Omega isn't a bad school...Its my mindset,that mindset of wanting it to be that of my previous school...But hey~! Thats not how things just work...

I guess,its just me...Have have have to learn to accept things that they are and not complain nor nag about it...Or else,i'll forever be uncontended ...Haha...=)

Desaru Picnic

2010-05-01T07:52:00.001-07:00

Desaru was Awesome~! Yea~! Came back a few hours ago,and i got to say,it was AWESOME~! But,today,can't forget of how God has blessed us today...If you payed attention,did you realize it has been raining so much these pass days and weeks? Yea~! It has~! Almost everyday...However,i really got to say PRAISE GOD for the AWESOME weather God gave us...Clear skies and clouds...Sunny weather too~! Excellent for a picnic at the beach~! Okay lah,maybe not the VERY best lah,cause sooner or later,it God Uberly HOT man...And i mean HOT~! I think most of us had Sun Burns,but hack,who's complaining~! Its better then being soaking wet,and i enjoyed myself even with the hot weather,but i still think it ROCKED~!

However,i got to say,at first when we arrived,we managed to book a good plot of space for us...Flat ground with something like carpet grass...Good place for a picnic,however,there are some Mak Rempits around lah,but it was good...Then suddenly out of no where,another group of Christian,i think they were having their church camp or something,a VERY BIG GROUP i can't estimate lol cause it was really big...Suddenly came invading to our land for their camp...Guess they wanted to play their games and they didn't have any space to do so at their campsite...So ya,they invaded,and they outnumbered us by i think,10-1...ALOT of them...So then,the place got so crowded and cramp,then in the end,we migrated to another place...To greener pasture eh?

But,during that whole time,i don't know whether is me lah,but i felt the feeling like,Oh we are OUR people and URS is yours...I mean,we're all Christians,brother and sisters in Christ,but even with that,theres still this feeling,of like our people and yours...For me,it doesn't seem right,but to be honest,even i felt that way,cause they invaded to our land(okay not our land lah,but our picnic spot) and we had to move...So,but i guess the new place we went,is abit better,its nearer to the toilet for one,but kinda hot,cause it didn't have the shade...

However,at first,i could see everyone was like sein sein like that...But thank God,after that,when they went into the water,woah~! That the engine started ady~! BOOM~! Fun,fun,fun~! Praise God lol...

I personally had a great time...For the first time,i went for a Banana boat ride,it was AWESOME~! Fell off the boat 3 times,haha but the 2nd and 3rd wasn't that pleasant,but AWESOME~! Then played games,lead by Ezer,Richard and Ezri too...Good job guys...It was fun...After that,we went for a dip again...And guess what we found,JELLY-FISH~! Yea~! Jelly fish,at first we were all like,AHHHHHHHHH~! JELLY-FISH get out of the water... Of corse lah,anyone would do that...

But i got to say,Jonathan was brave lol,wanted to catch the jelly fish with the,pail...Brave man,Ezra too...I pulak follow,however i wasn't wearing my Spec,so can't see well,haha...But i remembered i touched some Jelly-fish...But not until just now,i researched and found out that the Jelly-Fish we caught and saw was Harmless to Humans...So i'm left here thinking,it was harmless,so all that overreacting and screaming was of no use...Ehem,ehem nothing nothing...

So ya,we had a good time...Then went KFC and makan makan...Haha,had a good time...Good time good time...And as i look back at all the past pictures of our outings to Desaru or other beaches,we had all change so much lol...Haha,what a fun day...Won't forget it...Planning for the next trip dy~! Till next time~! xD

Beef Up~!

2010-04-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

Come On Beven,You Have To Beef Up~! Beef Up~! Beef Up~!

Once upon A time

2010-04-27T02:34:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time,lived two Mushrooms in a far far away land...They were named Blue and Orange ...Blue and Orange grew up together in their childhood...They were childhood friends...When they were little,they were very close...Almost like brothers...They played on and on and on...And they love each other very much...Blue brought Orange to his village,and Orange lived there...As long as Orange had Blue,Orange was happy...

However,one day Blue left the village for a long time...Orange found himself left alone and lonely...Orange was very sad,but Orange made new friends and lived on...Blue also made new friends...And both Blue and Orange started to drift away from each other...They lived their own life,had own friends...

However,one day,Blue came back to the village...Orange was at first thrill and happy...But soon Orange wasn't happy...Even though Blue had came back,but all of Orange's friends started to focus on Blue...It seemed that nobody started to care about Orange...Orange was sad,that why would his friends,forget about him whenever Blue was around...

One day,there was a great gathering...All mushrooms alike went...And again,it happened again...Orange was left alone...Non of Orange friends,bothered about him...Everyone wanted Blue Blue Blue...So,Orange managed to make new friends...Orange was happy...However,Blue saw this,and Blue started gossiping about Orange...Stuffs like how unsteady Orange was and the rumours continued to spread...

When the great gathering was over,Orange found that many of his friends had already hated him...Orange was very very very sad...That why would all his friends believe all of Blue's words...Orange had his reasons for all he had done...But whenever Blue said anything,everyone would listen to Blue...

As time passed,both Blue and Orange friendship lay in tatters...However,although how much Blue would try to act in front of everyone else to hide the fact Blue hates Orange...Orange was sad of all that had happen,Orange tried many times to forgive Blue,but Orange just couldn't...Orange just couldn't forget...

Orange was sad...Sad that whatever things Blue things did or said,even though people know of the things Blue did,nobody would do anything,and Blue could get away with anything...Orange was also sad,sad that whenever Blue is around,all of Orange's friends would not bother about Orange...Orange was also angry,angry that Blue would always talk bad about other Mushrooms,but when with those Mushrooms,Blue would treat them very well although of all the things Blue had said...Orange couldn't also stand it,that whatever Blue says,other Mushrooms would follow and believe...Even though it isn't true...

That is why,Orange is always afraid of Blue making friends with Orange friends...Because Orange doesn't want Orange's friends to ignore and forget about Orange...That is why Orange is always feels insecure and uneasy whenever Blue is around...

Even as time continues to pass,and more chapters of the stories are written down,deep down Orange hopes that everything will turn out well...And there will be a Happy Ending to this story...That both Orange and Blue could once again be good friends like of that when they were young and that Blue would change his ways...

To be continued.............

Beautiful~!

2010-04-11T00:14:00.000-07:00

Yea~!

2010-04-10T08:46:00.000-07:00

Yea~! I've finally finish Uploading most of the pictures into facebook~! By pictures,i'm referring to many pictures,taken these past few years from past to present...For a long time,all these pictures have been stored in my Computer...But,about a few hours ago,i've started Uploading almost All of it into facebook...Now why would i do so?

I thought,whats the point of me keeping all of it? Just Shiock Sendiri? Only to be seen by me,my mum or any visiters who wants to see it...Don't you think its a waste? That it should be shared because it consist of So many people pictures...

And to clarify,i am NOT trying to SHOW OFF in facebook that ,Wah I have so many pictures bla bla... I am Not~!

I want to share it with everyone else not to SHOW OFF...That never came across my mind...

Okay,well to be honest,i'm pretty tired here...I've been Manually choosing the pictures,not Auto because theres just TOO MANY...The best of the best...And well,i am rather satisfied...

However,i want to let everyone know...Many of the pictures taken,are taken my Sis.Jessie,which is our church Youth Advisor...Okay,just want to remind everyone that through these pass years,shes been taking so many pictures of the youth...While we were all having fun,shes the one who have been sacrificing to take picture of us...So i ask,everyone out there,who you know,your pictures have been taken by her,please Appreciate her by saying a simple thanks or anything...Cause shes really done alot...

From me,thanks Mum for taking pictures all these while...A Big Thanks~!

Okay,nothing much to right,i'm dead tired,going to go to bed soon...Cya~!

Inspired~!

2010-04-09T08:48:00.000-07:00

Just finished Cell Group...I heard a friend played this song on my guitar...Goodness,after hearing it i immediately feel in love with this song...Totally...Okay lah,although this song may sound EMO or what ever you may call it,but listening or playing this song DOESN'T make you EMO lah...Just want to clarify it..=) Anyways,this song ISN'T easy to learn on the Guitar...ISN'T~!!! But i will try my best to learn it,why? Because its simply Beautiful Lah...And please.NOOOO i am not EMO'ing about anything ESPECIALLY LOVE okay...I'm totally normal...Haha~! Okay,will try my best o learn it~! Until finally GET It~! No matter What! Chiong~!

Study~!

2010-04-07T07:34:00.000-07:00

STUDY STUDY STUDY~! I can't believe that it is already April now~!...Time has pass so fast...But what shook me to my core,is that SPM is coming very very soon~!...About in 7months time...Yea,7months...Thats very very near~!...Moreover i haven't really started to studying...And there are so much much much left for me to study...

As i look back,these pass 4 months,for January,February,March and April...What have i been doing? To be honest i don't even know... It seems I've wasted these pass 3 months...I can recall,before every holidays or Big Events this pass 3 months,i would say to myself,Okay Beven after this you have to start Studying...And guess what happens next? I'm back to my old habit which is the laze around~!

I've been ALL too playful and lazy...For me,as i look back,i've truly wasted my time...And i'm not a Smart Student at All...I'm not like all my other classmates who don't know why,can just absorb or understands anything the teacher teaches..And excel in their studies.Well,I CAN'T~! It seems i have to put in ALOT of afford for any study and make,and moreover i only can advance abit for alot of time spent...

I know i have to start working hard now...I can't afford to continue to waste my time...As everyone has always told me,my Teachers,Friends and especially my Mum...SPM will determine my future...Yet i am so playful and lazy...

I hope and pray,i can kick away this bad habit of mine and be more like some of my friends who are so hardworking...I hope i can start working hard now and stop slacking...As the saying goes,theres always a time for play and for work...I've been playing too much,and its time for me to work,work,work~!

Falling Down...

2010-04-04T07:25:00.000-07:00

Can't deny it...These pass few days and weeks,i've kept falling down over and over again...When i climb right up again,and seems as everything is alright,here i go and fall once again...I won't hide it,nor will i care about what you might think about me,what Emo lah bla bla bla...Everyone has their Up and Down's theres no denial to that...

Moreover,the fact that,you know you've said Sorry to God countless of times for sinning and in the end ended up sinning again...It feels horrible eh?....Praying for Change Billion of Times but yet there is nothing...It can get so frustrating and disappointing eh? I guess these are the Trials in a Christian life...

Not to forget that everyone has their own Seasons...I'm not trying to be Emo,although i may sound lah,but ya,i guess i'm hitting Fall now...But wait,no one can always be in Spring,nor in Summer eh? Everyone has their Seasons...

I hope that through this,i can come out stronger,like how i used to be in the past...

I thought,

i could handle it,

i've change,

i've overcome it,

i'm no longer the same...

Been a tough time,must go through it,Must Be Strong Beven~! You Can Do It~! No matter what,must try to put on a Smile... God Is With You~!

Expecting Too Much?

2010-04-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

The Question that i'm currently asking myself is have i been expecting too much of Myself and the people around me? Firstly my friends, I know the fact that we're all not perfect and all have our faults,but i bet there is definitely an expectation in everyone of us towards our friends Eh? And the worst thing is,we might expect so much or too much from them,and when they don't meet up to our expectation,or act in such away that is totally against what we think of them,i guess at times we'll definitely feel disappointed or hurt Eh?

Next for myself,i guess i've been expecting too much from myself...Comparing comparing,comparing...Ahhh~! Its very annoying,looking at other people and thinking stuff like,ahh why am i not like this,nor am i like that? Or thinking stuff like if i were this,this can happen,and they won't feel weird,etc etc... Ended up,getting all too frustrated over petty things like this...Moreover,expecting myself to be able to do this and that...

Its been a challenging week...Exams are coming,not to forget SPM too...I can't,i just can't afford to waste my time and life with this...Have to stop Dreaming,because i know Dreaming alone will lead no where,Action is more important.

Lord,

please help me to be truly contented with myself and how you've made me,

please help me to not expect too much from my friends and know that everyone has their faults,

please help me to start living life how you want me to live...

Guess have to try my best and leave the rest to God...

Jiayou~!

Thought...

2010-03-31T07:28:00.000-07:00

When was the last time,you just stop everything your doing now or any worries and just think? I've done let,and the first thing that immediately pop into my mind is the notion that time has past on so quickly...It has really past so fast,i'm already 18 this year...No longer a kid,going to have my SPM this year,being able to drive now...Woah,i'm no longer a kid,okay maybe to some i still am lah but the point is,i'm older now and so as every else...I guess this is the true meaning of growing up Eh? The notion that we're growing older and older...No longer can be the same kids of the past...Growing to become Adults...In a way,it scares me,of what the future has install...And as this is my last year in Secondary School,as i always look at my Juniors,i am remembered of myself when i was in their shoes...And know i realise,what every adult has been saying all along,a students life is the best...And yes,it is...We don't have to worry about all those Big things in life,its always OUR parents who take care of us...And soon enough,that'll our turn...

As i look and think about young adults,especially in my church,i can't help but think,thats going to be me in the future...Time is passing fast and it'll continue to...Must learn to try to be contented and enjoy life now,stop complaining and bragging because i and everyone else have only one chance to live this Happy-Life ...Although it may seem as a giant of task for me,but try bahz...

Finally~!

2010-03-31T00:03:00.000-07:00

Yes~! Finally i got back my computer~! Woots~! Haha,it has been so s so so Long~! If you've noticed lah that ,Eh why Beven so long didn't online? That is IF LAH? Arhem Arhem...

Well,basicly my computer screen went hay wire...Who knows why? Maybe it was too old already? And its time was up? Or maybe Jealous? Arhem,that is someone would understand what i mean,hmmph?

Anyways,how was life without the computer? Let me tell you,okay lah i guess most of us especially students use the computer almost every day...And i think to some of us,even one day is like one year...I can say i was one of them,i mean sort of lah,not totally but one...My immediate reaction when the computer broke down was,HAAR?! I guess most of us will have that reaction,and well i had that too...Mum send it to repair,and the man said it had to take about closely to about 1 week...Okay,wait wait,1 week? Not very long eh? But take for instant,your whole structure of life,after you've finish study,or staying up late,or dinner or when your just bored,the number one thing to look for,is the computer...And suddenly,being taken away...Won't you feel weird? Just like those who love to play video games or SMS,when the PS2 or handphone is gone,woah its like something dear to us is BYEBYE...

However,i took this as a sign,that okay,for this period i have to stop facebook,msn etc...And i thank God i did..I had a few chance to use computers but,hack gone this far...Just tahan,and now finally,WOOTS~! Guess it feels great...Without the computer,in a way,i found it to be quite lonely,cause being not able to chat with my friends...But in a way,it was much peaceful,had much more time on my hands...

Even as now,i've gotten back my Computer,okay the New Computer Screen,even though its new,is totally WEIRD...Even though its new but WEIRD...Can't get use to it...Well,guess have to get use to it...But as i've gotten it back,i hope what i've learnt or endure this past days i'm able to input it now even as i've gotten it back...

Okay,nothing much more to write,hope can learn from my experience,and hope won't be glued to the computer since i've gotten it back...Chaoz~!

Funny Pictures For Those Stress With Their Exams~!

2010-03-23T07:17:00.000-07:00

A Thought On Littering...

2010-03-22T03:36:00.000-07:00

Well,just have a thought that i've been longing to write about,and yes thats about Littering...We can say Malaysia isn't one of the most Cleanness place in the world...However we're not the worse...But truly,the extent of how filty our country is,is evident...Just take a close look at public toilets? No very pleasing Eh? Look at the drains,or Longkangs,it's very rare to see a drain or Longkang free from plastic bags,tissue papers,water bottles cans etc...Take a look at the lampost or road signs,especially here in JB you will realize there are so many PINJAM WANG Posters everywhere...I bet to us,Malaysians we know,that our country isn't one of the cleanness place,nor is it the worse...

But the reason why i'm writing here is not because i'm trying to write some Essay about littering or something else...But i want to write about the Attitude that Malaysians,not everyone lah ofcorse but the Attitude and Mentality that many Malaysians have...

I bet that many of us complain about how dirty Malaysia is eh? That we can talk about this all day along eh? But is alright i guess cause its partly true...And i bet many of us Blame the Government too Eh? That why is it So Lazy Lah,all the Corruption Lah Bla bla bla But it is true,the Government does play a role...But aren't WE the ones who are the Major problems not the Government?

I am really sick,just really sick of seeing and hearing of Malaysians who complain and complain and complain,blame others and condemn this country about how dirty our country is where they themselves are ones who cause it...For instance,something as simple as a sweet wrapper, because he/she is lazy to walk abit to a rubbish bin,or just keep it first until there is a rubbish bin,he/she just litters it...And there is always one Famous excuse that a person who litter will make...Aiya this is just a Small Matter Lah...It won't hurt...How is something so small like this going to hurt?

Erm,Hello? Can you please Wake Up? Isn't this the very attitude that has made our country this way? Can't you atlease just keep the rubbish in your pocket rather than just litter it? Hello? Even though its just a sweet wrapper,but Hey this is still littering even though how harmless it may seem...

Sick of seeing people,complaining and complaining but they themselves do it...I bet All of us,are guilty of this before eh?...I dare to say i am guilty of before,and i've done many such things before...But now i know,this is wrong and have stop...

I just hope that we,as Malaysians will stop doing such things,especially Christians...Yea,especially Christian...If we do so,how are we different from anyone else? Aren't we the same? And how is Malaysia going to be a Rubbish free country like many other countries if we still hold this type of attitude in us? Well as the saying goes, It All Starts With Us~! If so,then Stop Complaining and Doing~!

Blueprint~!

2010-03-20T05:41:00.000-07:00

Woah,just got back from Kluang today for the C.L.A.P training at Convent Oasis...Gosh and i am Tired~! C.L.A.P was good but the reason why i'm here today is to blog not about C.L.A.P but about Blueprint...

Blueprint is bascily for Youths to find what is their purpose in life and to find out our personality,gifts and our callings in life...

When i heard blueprint was going to be held on the 19 March,it arose me...I heard around that it would be good,and the topic interested me...So i wanted to go and i wanted to go not because of the reason that i wanted to meet friends alone,but to learn too...I wasn't force neither...

So ya,i wanted to go,but the thing is we had C.L.A.P on the 19 and 20 of march in Convent Oasis...It Clashed...So i was quite disappointed that i wasn't able to make it...So on the morning of the 19,i woke up around 7.30am plus to get ready to go to Kluang...We fetch Jon and Charles on the way and we arrived around 9am plus... We found out that we were the earliest at Convent Oasis...We called,and asked where were the rest...But we found out that it was 8.30PM NOT 8.30AM...And thus we were all Shock...So we had almost the rest of the day left,what are we going to do?

Then i realise,Hey~! Since we have so much time left on our hands,why not we attend Blueprint? And so thus,we attented Blueprint...Although we were kinda late and miss the beginning few parts of it but it was good...

See how God works miracles? I wanted to go,but i couldn't,but in the end,i was able to go...A miracle or just a coincidence? I DON'T THINK SOO~! God is so good,he knew i wanted to go,and he answered my wish...Praise God~!

So what did i learn in Blueprint?

Woah,first is my Personality...Before,i was really really really Confuse about myself..I didn't know who I really was...Confuse about my Personalities and Me Myself...But,after i did the Personality Test,i found out my personality... I'm slightly Stronger on the Melancholy side conpared to Sanguine side...So basicly i'm a SangMel...Yea~! And it really deescribes me~! Beven Lau~! Yes i am a SangMel~! Although some say,ahyah Melancholy people are Emo what bla bla bla,but Hey who cares what you say man~! I'm Happy for who i am~! Although i'm a Melancholy,so what~! I'm Happy for how God has created me~! I'm Unique~! I'm a SangMel and i'm Happy to Be One~!

I also found out One Quality in Me...There are many like Mercy,Love etc...But found out,that one Quality that stands out the most(Currently Lah) in me is the Cry for Justice... We were asked what makes you angry,sadden or burden when you look at Malaysia...Besides Racial dicrimination,Injustice in this country stands out the most...Found out,i Hate Injustice...People doing wrong,but are able to get away with what they do...It's like a,burden that these people are getting away for their crimes while the Innocent suffer...Shouldn't these people be brought to Justice for their Crime? How is it that people can Robe,Murder and Rape without being brought to the Justice that they Deserve for their crimes? How is this Fair to the Victims? How can this sort of things happen? Found out there is a Hunger in me for Justice to be done to all those Guilty for their crimes...

Also learnt that in order for us the have a Successful future,we have to start planning now...Really inspire by Simon's story of how from a poor family and of 10 siblings able to plan his life,and become successful...Although he lost it lah,then regain it then lost it again lah,but its an inspiring story...Also learnt Money doesn't refer to how Successful We are But it is just a tool...

Well,blueprint was a good experience for me...Learnt alot,Especially my Personality~! Praise God i was able to go...=) And yes,I'm a SangMel~! WooHoo~! =)

Moreover,woah the Holidays are coming to a Close...What a wonder week...Really a wonderful and enjoyable week...Praise God for this wonderful week that i was able to have...=) Hope i'll be hardworking when school reopens...=) Okay,nothing more for me to write,Thanks~! Beven signing out~! =)

Kukup Retreat~!

2010-03-16T04:30:00.000-07:00

Woah,Woah,Woah~! Just came back from the Youth Retreat from Kukup,Pontian...I got to say,it was a fun and great experience~! For me,it was truly very satisfying to see the Youths enjoy themselves...Why? Well,cause both my mum and me have been planning and and for me,dreaming of this camp since last year and i'm very glad that most of the plans went well,and i could see them enjoying themselves...Satisfied~!

It was just Awesome and Fun~! It really was a great time of fellowship with our youths and the youths from Joyful Grace Church Pontian...Moreoever getting to rekindle dead friendships and making new ones,has been nice~! For me,seeing the smile and laughter in the Youths,is one of the best rewards i can ask for planning and doing stuffs in preperation for this...I don't really know how to explain it,but its like a warm happy feeling... =)

Although to be honest,at first i was worried,stress and dissapointed that the turn out was so little...But thank God lah,it came out well...=)

Just absolutely Satisfied and Glad...I hope we can have more Retreat's like this,haha~! Fun~! Although it was only for 2D1N but well,it was still Awesome...=)

Just wan to say Thanks to Joy,Jonathan,Jasmine,Jun Hao,Chi Yong,Juana,Hui Woon,Pas Dan and many others for your own unique way of helping out~! Thanks~!

Quotes and Sayings~!

2010-03-08T06:27:00.000-08:00

Check out these Quotes and sayings...For me it's very true in every word...

Being Happy doesn't mean everything needs to be perfect...It means we've decided to see beyond the imperfections~! God didn't promise days without pain,laughter without sorrow,sun without rain,but HE did promise strength for the day,comfort for the tears & light for the way...

Life is Not Fair,so Get use to it~!

The world won't care about your self-esteem.The world will expect you to accomplish something before you feel good about yourself...

If you think your teacher is tough,wait till you get a boss...

If you mess up,it's not your parents fault,so don't whine about your mistakes,learn from them~!

Life is not divided into semester breaks and holidays...You don't get summers off and very few employers are intrested in helping you FIND Yourself...Do that on your own time~!

Television and Computers are not real life~! In real life people actually have to leave for their work and jobs...

Before you were born,your parents weren't as boring as they are now.They got that away from paying Your bills,cleaning Your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you though you were~!

Nothing Is Impossible~!

2010-03-04T07:10:00.000-08:00

I guess,it's kinda dissapointing when things don't go your ways...Hey~! Things don't always go our ways right? But,Especially when you have been,okay lah have been thinking,planning and dreaming so much about something and have long for quite sometime for it to be a succes,and how much fun it would be esatra esatra...But when reality comes,Boom~! All but soon vanish...Okay,i'm quite dissapointed and discourage,but well why should I? Why am i looking at the problems when i should be looking for the answers? Even though nothing seems to be turning out the way i want to,but Just Trust in God~! I have a choice~! A choice to Make~! Whether to Stay Down or Lift Myself Up~! Although it is much easier Staying Down,but only by trying and fighting will I truly Grow~!

I guess,sometimes turning and looking to God is exactly like talking to a friend behind a Stone Wall...Well,we can't see our friend,neither can we hear,see,feel nor understand him/her directly...But than what do we have left? Our Faith...Thats all we have...Faith in knowing,that somehow,somehow our Friend understands how we feel or what we are going through...And well,finds a way,maybe directly or indirectly to speak to us...The only thing is whether we are Attentive enough to Hear it...

When all seems lost,when the world seems against you,even your Friends whom you used to trust are against you,what to do? One answer,God...

And well,i'm given this song,Nothing Is Impossible By Planetshakers,read the lyrics,isn't it amazing? It is~!

I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything
Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible
Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible

I believe, I believe

I believe, I believe in you

Philippians 4:13:I can do all things which Christ that strengthens me~!

Nothing Is Impossible~!

2010-03-02T06:29:00.000-08:00

Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible
Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible
I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything
I believe, I believe
I believe, I believe in you

YES~!!!

2010-03-01T06:15:00.001-08:00

Yes~! I finally Got my Driving License~! WooHoo~! I'm now officially Legal On the Road~! Hahahaha~! It Feels Great~! But,still under my mum,Erhem erhem...Means i can only Drive when shes around me for this coming few months,Erhem...Its Good for me bahz,I think?

How does it Feel?

It Feels Great~! Yes It Does~! WooHoo~! Just want to to Shout It Out Loud~! It feels great to finally being able to Drive~! Woots~! Feels Great to get Control of the Wheel for Your OwnSelf~!

But by getting my License,it also Signifies something...It signifies that i am already OLD~! Yea,i'll be Driving Soon,and most likely i will be driving my friends and the youths in my church around here and there...That is IF~! They are Willing to Sit my Car...

In a way,can't believe it,i'm already Driving...I've already been dreaming of this Day when i was still a Kiddo...And now,Woah... Time has past so fast...I'm no longer a Kid...Okay lah,maybe i still have the Kid In Me...But ya,the Point Is I'm Already Old but Driving~! Yea~!...

Okay,nothing much haha~!

See You On The Road~!!! =)

Strangers?

2010-02-27T07:18:00.000-08:00

Okay,well just wanted to write this for some time already...And now i shall write it~! Yes~! Strangers...Hmmph,why the title Strangers? Well,okay it's like this...

Now,we have so many ways of communicating with someone...Now,we don't need to talk to the person face to face but we can communicate with them via Msn lah ,Sms lah,Ebuddy lah,facebook lah,you name it~!...Okay so now whats my point? My point is,even though now we have so many great ways to communicate with each other,but i realize,even though many times we might chat with a friend until in the middle of the night,or spend ours on end talking or chatting but when it comes to meeting each other and have a face to face talk...What do you get as a result? TOTAL STRANGERS~! Ya do you realize it? Okay i don't mean all lah,but quite a number of the times this happens eh? Its like,through a screen,both people can chat about anything and for hours,but when it comes to meeting each other,TOTAL BLANKNESS~! And what about all those hours spent on chatting with each other? All Gone?

One funny occasion that happen and clearly illustrate this is this...One day,theres two friend,they met once,but chat with each other through the phone(SMS) lah,MSN lah you name it...But when they met each other,COMPLETELY QUIET~! It's like complete strangers...Than in the end? Ended up chatting with each other Through MSN although their like right beside each other...LOL? It's True~!

Okay so now what is my point? Ofcorse,chatting with each other via a screen is GOOD.(I'm not trying to be Sarcastic)..It is undeniable...But spending hours and hours chatting with each other and in the end,meeting each other and being total Strangers? Hmmph...And yes yes,i know some people may be Shy...But for me lah,all the hours spent talking? And ended up being total strangers and still relying on a Screen rather than talking face to face? So yaaa.....

Well i guess,both are important...Chatting with a person face to face good,but Tak Kan they will always meet eh? And where MSN,Facebook,SMS comes in,and helps people to keep in contact,but if their relationship is only base on communicating through a Screen? Hmmph....

P.S ,i didn't mean to offend anyone or point out any fingers...Just wanted to write about this... =) No offence... =)

Pass~! WooHoo~!

2010-02-23T20:37:00.000-08:00

WooHoo~! Yes~! I've Pass my Driving Test~! WooHoo Praise God~! Moreoever i didn't Fail~! I didn't Fail~! Praise God WooHoo~! I got to say,i was pretty anxious and nervous about the test~! I could sleep last night lah,but they said the Test was surpose to Start at 8am...So i went 8am...But it turn out,i had to wait for 1 hour,i only took Part 1 of the Driving test at 9am~! 1Hour~! And Moreoever,i think for me lah,and maybe you guys too,the killing part of the Driving Test isn't the actual driving,but the Time Spent Waiting and Worrying For Your Turn to Drive~! Waiting Waiting Waiting~! Arhh,during that period of one hour,Gosh was i nervous,but i Praise God~! I listen to some Christian songs,it calm me down a little and i Praise God i managed to talk the guy sitting beside me...And what a coincidence~! He knew Gan Jun Hao and was from the same school as he~! This really calm me cause atlease i got to talk someone...

Moreoever,i saw Jasmine Cha...Yea...And i realized this,this is Jasmine's first time while this is my last time...Okay so i really only started the Part 1 at around 9.15am...1hours and 15mins of waiting...You may think it isn't long,but sitting over there and waiting for your turn and not doing anything but waiting...Woah~! Than,while i was already up at Hill,waiting for my turn,there was this Girl,she was like totally freaked out about the Driving thing...She was like totally nervous and anxious and was expressing it out to her Friend LOUDY~! Everyone there could hear her~!...But thank God she also passed lah...

After that had to wait AGAIN~! This time,for Part 2 which was driving test on the road...Goodness,i waited for around 1 hours and 30 mins sitting there waiting~! But i wasn't that nervous cause i knew i pass Part 1...Moreoever,i realise something...When i'm tense or nervous about something,i tend to go to the toilet more than normal...And NO not to PangSai but to Xiao Pian...I think about 7 or 8 times for the corse of 4 hours...I don't know whether it is consider alot lah but for it it is...So,while i was waiting,i went through all the steps of what i should do and the route of the Driving in my Head...

Besides that,while waiting,i saw many people walked towards the Hill to wait to do Part 1...Goodness,i could just understand and relate to how they were feeling...All of their faces seemed so nervous and anxious...And there were people walking back from the Hill...Some with Happy Faces,and Others with Sad and Sorrowful faces...Can't help but feel sad for those who fail.Their RM120 flew away and they had to come back again and Wait and Worry again...And there was this Indian Lady,i think Mid 40's...I felt so sad and sorry for her...She failed both Part 1 and 2...And Goodness lah,atlease the Uncle at the counter could be more considerate and caring lah... He told her,Fail Can Go back Now in a very,Bu Suang way...And as she slowly slip out of my vision,the weird thing is the TV Behind me suddenly Turn On a Emo Sad song while she slip out of my Vision...Weird~! Music add on to make the moment even more Dramatic~!

I can't help but pity the people who fail their Driving Test...They have to come back,and i think the real Killer is no the Test but the Waiting and Worry...

So when it was my turn,Praise God it went well...The JPJ Examiner only asked me to go Half of the way...Thank God~! If not i think there will be more mistakes~! Well,the passing mark is 16/20...Praise God i got 17/20~! Yea...

Walked back happily...=)

Than,well sort of drove my Mums Auto/Power steering car...Sssshhh~! Don't let the Police know~! >=) It felt weird,i guess i'm just so Use to the Kancil Car,Manual driving and No power steering...I guess need sometime to get to use to her car...But i hope and pray i will get a Car of my Own~! That'll be very cool~! Doesn't need to be a Merz,BMW,Ferrari,Porsche or any fancy car...Even if i get a Kancil,Auto lah it'll be nice~!

Okay~! Just want to say Thanks for all Those who remembered to pray for me~! Even if anyone bothered to remember,Erhem...And those who encouraged and support me~! Thanks Kai Jun~! Appreciate it So Much Bro~! And Mum for praying and supporting me~! Gonna get my license next week~! And i'll be Street Legal~! WooHoo~! Hope won't get into any accidents~!

Take Care and God Bless~! WooHoo~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Diring Test~!

2010-02-23T02:08:00.000-08:00

Gosh tomorrows gonna be my driving test~! Having mix feelings about it...On the positive side,Yes~! Finally~1 I've came so far since last year to now and finally this is my last obstacle than i shall have my license to Drive~! Yes Drive Finally~! Haha~! Yea~! But on the other hand,to be honest,i'm quite nervous about it...I seriously don't want to fail to test...Seriously don't want to...If so,need to Ponteng School once again,need to pay another RM120 and well,live with the fact i fail my driving test before...Okay lah,not that serious,but i guess i have to Trust in God and just Pray Pray Pray~! Hope i Pass~!

Lord please let me pass my Driving Test tomorrow~!

On a different topic,check out this song by Paramore,Bick by Boring Brick...For me,it just sounds Awesome~!

Time passes so fast~!

2010-02-21T03:09:00.000-08:00

And with that,School is going to reopen once again...After 10days of Awesome Chinese New Year holidays...This past 10 days has been quite fun and pleasant i would say...Went back Batu Pahat,came back JB with my uncle and grandma...Went for Swimming,stayed home and enjoyed my holiday...Enjoyed good food...Went to City Square and had sort of a Movie Marathon,went to Pontian for a Day,and spend most of my last Saturday and Sunday in Church...Ahhh,what a pleasant and nice holiday...But the bad thing is i didn't even studied ...I know,my SPM is this year and i should really start studying for it cause my future is hanging in the balance...

But i don't seem that optimistic for school reopening...I guess i still want to Enjoy~! And i know its going to be tough~! Tough~! But i guess i have to stop slacking and being lazy and really put some EFFORT into it~! Even though i don't want to,but Hey~! Life still has to go on right? It's going to be tough,but i guess i have to Work Hard and Depend on God bahz... Jiayou~!Gambatte~! Hwaiting~!

Okay if your free,watch this...It's concerning about the attacks on the Christian Churches..It reveals what some people don't know what they are doing...

Some funny video's to Brighten your Day~!

2010-02-18T07:55:00.000-08:00

Jesus just a Good man?/Paul Washer

2010-02-18T05:54:00.000-08:00

Hi,okay i just want to write this post,because of something significant that Pastor Paul Washer had said that is very true...Please read this...

Many people say,Jesus was a Good Man,but Not the Son of God...But if Jesus was not the Son of God,than he is not a Good Man...Because would a Good man deceive and lie to Millions of People?

I admire Pastor Paul Washer for his courage,boldness and passion to just Speak out the Truth about Christian now adays eventhough he knows that he says,many people will hate it for it for he just go all out for it.He preaches about truth even though we don't want to hear it,but he preaches the truth...Moreoever he isn't like some Pastors,who sit in a Air Condition Room all day long or Pastor's whose life are so blessed and nice...Paul is a missionary Pastor who always goes for mission...Always being in the line of fire...This is the Sort Of Pastor i admire so much...So you can see with the video down below,he just preaches the Gospel on the Street for crying out loud,where many people will think he is crazy but he doesn't care,and yet with many looking at him he still preaches with some Truth and Passion for Christ...A True Man of God...