Youth Appreciation Night Barbeque~!

Woah~! We just had our Youth Appreciation Night Barbeque just now...For me,it was AWESOME~! I got to say,before i arrived in church,i saw some dark clouds,and was pondering whether it will rain,but i didn't let it effect me...Somehow,i knew that it wouldn't rain,FAITH in God...To be honest,i'm usually Negative about this sort of things,but this time i wasn't~! Yes~! And Praise God,it didn't rain at all~!

Okay,next is the slideshow...Me myself and both Richard had been *Chionging/Rushing* to finish the Youth Slideshow Movie by today...We spent our whole Sunday and Monday afternoon doing it~! It was really hardwork...Moreoever Richard spend i think another afternoon today finishing it~! I really admire his adversity and hardwork~! So Thanks Richard~!

I really thank God the Slideshow went well...Just now,the Slideshow couldn't been shown due to some technical problem...But somehow,to be honest again,i wasn't worried or anything...I knew that the Slideshow could be shown,my FAITH in God didn't waver,the feeling is like,i know,i know that everything will be fine,once again,i wasn't NEGATIVE~! Yea~! And it really happen~! After we had change to Computer,even though they said it won't work,but it really did work~! Another Miracle~! Praise God~!

I really got to say,today was a Blast,it was like God was really helping us today,Thank You God for helping us today,i'm also happy that the Slideshow went well...All our hardwork didn't go in VAIN~! And yes,to those who came today,you would realise i was wearing a Japanese Outfit...It was given to me by my cousin and was meant to be worn during Summer because in Japan,Summer is REALLY REALLY HOT~~!!! And the reason i wore it,was because,Hey It's Barbeque~! It's going to be HOT and SWEATY~! Why Not?

Well,okay i just want to Thank Everyone who came today~! Thanks for coming and i hoped you had a wonderful time~! Ohyah,and Pictures will be uploaded,that is if i'm free lah~!

Lord,i Thank and Praise you for everything today,thank you for being with us today and making today a trully wonderful time of Fellowship between our Youths...

Slideshow Fever~!

This past few days,i've been busy making out the Slideshow Video for the Youth Appreciation Night Barbque which is tomorrow...And moreoever,the Slideshow has to be done by tomorrow~! Goodness and theres so much left to do~! But i got to say,at first i was like,Aiya simple task,but to be honest,it isn't~! Finding pictures of previous events is not very that hard,but editing them and putting them into a slideshow and doing small bit and pieces of change so that the Slideshow won't be like a Steriotype thing isn't easy~!
Moreoever finding pictures of each individual youths isn't easy too~! But for those who are active,it's not hard lah,but for those who are VERY CAEMERA SHY...Gosh,it's like finding a needle in a hay stack~! NOT EASY~!
Well,i may sound worried,but i'm not,i Thank God i managed to find the right pictures,and really thanks so much to Richard Woon for helping me,Gosh i think i won't be able to do without him...Well,i'm off for photo hunt again to find even more pictures~!
I really hope that on that day,they would appreciate it,and well sort of enjoy it,cause it took alot of work doing this...

Anyways,God Bless~! And Take Care~!

Yiruma~!

Every since i've heard Yiruma's piano solo's,woah i've been captivated by his music...I used to never like hearing classical music,or piano music,but he change that~! I really got to say,his songs are just so beautiful~! It's like,whenever i listen his music,it makes me feel like giving up all the pop songs,rock or rap songs that i listen to and just listen to his songs,BECAUSE THEIR JUST SO BEAUTIFUL~!

Eventthough i'm not a Pianist and i don't even know to play the Piano,but i really love his music~! And i wish that i could play as well as he does~! Or just knowing how to play the Piano...Absolutely Beautiful~!

It's just too beautiful,especially River Flows in You,Kiss The Rain,and Maybe...Ahhh,my favourites~!

I hope he will continue to come up with beautiful music...

Seasons

I guess it has been a very long time since i blog about anything,or about something that is revelant eh? One reason is because i've been quite busy this pass month with so many things to do...And yes,i do like a busy life,eventhough it's my holiday,but hack~! It's better than staring at the computer the whole day~!

Todays topic is about the different Seasons of calling in a Christian Life...(Like Teacher Pulak =P) Well,if you aren't a Christian,or have no interest,then i guess this isn't the thing you should read,haha~!

I guess everyone has their own seasons right? By seasons i mean,their own unique time of rising up,or to be at the top of the game...Well for me,i guess i had my seasons,and it faded away...I remembered in the past,i used to be so on fire for God,and by fire i really mean on fire for God.Not not literally on fire lah,if not i won't be here..Anyways,I remembered during that time,i was so on fired that i even wanted to become a Pastor...Yes,i really wanted to become a Youth Pastor...And it was also like,i was the Youth Leader,esatra esatra...I won't go into detail lah,but back to where i am now...

Now,it seems as if everything has change...It seems like,the Seasons or Tide had change...Many of the Youths before,who in the pass didn't want to be apart with Serving God now,are so on fired for God...They have all grown up eh? And what about me? Woah,to be honest,that great bright fire that was once burning in me seems to be dimmed by so much...And that also,i remembered i used to be well,sort of at the top,and now,for me,i've drop tremendously...

Time has change so many things...The Seasons and Tide had change so much...I guess my time is up? I hope not,because there is so much more left in me that wants to Break Out...But in my heart,i'm really happy for all those younger one's,who know has to fire to serve God and have change so much,i am trully trully happy for them...

Lord,please let me Seasons change back,to be on fire for you again like that of the past...

Reading the Bible~!

Yes,reading the bible...Well,reading the bible is one way to grow closer to God and be wiser...But to be honest,for me its very tough to sit down and focus on reading the bible and nothing else...I remembered,i've finished reading the bible before,but now woah its hard...I really wonder how i managed to accomplish it in the past...To be honest,i would really prefer to spend my quite time worshiping or praying,its HARD~!

I hope that i can seriously start reading the bible once again and not fall asleep in the process,haha~!

Okay,God Bless~!

Rest in Peace Auntie/Deacon Irene

I can't believe it.Auntie Irene has passed away just last night at around 9pm.I really can't believe it...When i heard the news,i was totally shock and devastated.Auntie Irene was such a good women whose heart was after God.In a way or other i admire her of her braveery and courage to always stand up during the Deacon Court Meeting for what is right. As now shes gone,to be honest i feel guilty,why?

I've seen her many times in church before,but i never really like talk to her or anything.Many times she had shown me great feet of kindness but yet i am like this.Sometimes when i see her i wouldn't even greet her but just walk right pass her.I feel guilty,guilty for not respecting her when she was still on this earth.

But i do know this,she is no longer suffering on this earth,she is in heaven with Jesus.She no longer has to suffer all the pain and suffering while on this earth,in a way i'm happy for her because she doesn't need to suffer the pain anymore but she'll be able to spend an eternity of happiness in heaven. I hope and pray that her family will be able to take this well and all her friends too...

I guess this has taught me a lesson,i have to start respecting those Elder then me.I have to...Yes,i have been a brat and yes i am still a brat.But i will try my best to change from that brat now...

Please Rest In Peace Sister Irene...

Esplosion Camp

This years Esplosion Camp was truly a blast.It was great~! Even though its over i am still missing it so much~! To be honest,i didn't come to this camp with the first intention of making friends,although it was one of the reasons lah,but it wasn't...My main motive of attending the camp was to be change from my old ways...Yes,to be change,in a way i was pretty much desperate in the camp to be touched and change by God...

I remembered once we arrive to the camp,we were the first to be there...So we had to wait for all the other churches to arrive...Once they arrived i and a few of my friends helped out with the registration...Helping to stick the sticker on the name tag...Yea,that was my first job in the camp...I would say,the place was well,okay lah,but just that the swimming pool is totaly green,and the beach well it wasn't the best lah and the rooms are not bad i would say,but just to add that there were rats on the roof of my room and it was really scary bathing cause you could hear the rats running about,to be frank i was afraid that the roof above me would pengsan and rats would drop down haha,paranoid i guess? Eventhough with all that i sure had one great time there...xD

The first night was awesome,especially the worship,goodness it ROCKED~! I jump~! Yea i wasn't afriad of people looking at me JUMP~! And as that the first day ended just like that...And the second day past by quite quickly...Well,but on the second day we were suppose to lead the night session of worship...For me i was pretty nervous about that night haha,i didn't want to play a wrong chord or had a string broken,but thank God that didn't happen...xD And just like that we led the night session of worship,it went very well to me,haha,but our so-call fast songs weren't really that how do i put this,youth fast songs lah haha but it still went well...

Afterthat we had the sermon,Pas Dan was talking about not caring of what people think of us...Then he asked the worship team to come out...I was suppose to play the guitar,then Ezra asked me to give him the guitar,so i gave him,and i was standing there like a stick don't know what to do...To be honest,when Ezra took away my guitar i was like WHAT THE COW?!!! why did you take away my guitar? What am i suppose to do? Yea,i was pretty much mad at him and well felt embarass...Hey isn't this common? Just imagine yourself if you were playing a musical instrument and someone just took your place just like and leaving you with nothing? How would you feel?

Haha,so when i left stage,i was pretty much unhappy,but i remembered what Pas Dan said,so i just didn't care,and took away all those unhappy thought away from me...But i realise God had a plan for this to happen,God let that happen so he could use me to minister and pray for my friends..So i did just that and realise that God had a plan for this...And also,thanks Ezra for taking away the guitar~!Because if not when a another songs was asked to be played,i would be blured~! Thankies~!

After that,we retired to the night..And the next day came...It was the last day of the camp,and i really wanted to make the best of it,so well i spend my SIESTA time on the beach alone,praying and reading the bible haha,but ended up walking in the beach and playing with my friends...Then on that night,when there was a altar call for all the youth leaders to come up..I went up,and i was like praying in toungues...Then when Pastor Zadok came,he prayed for me,i didn't know why but i just burst into tears,i really burst into tears because of all my sins and i was guilty of them...Then i just kneel down,i didn't bother what others would say i just kneel down...And pray,during that whole time i was hoping someone would come and pray for me,but no one came,after quite awhile i went back to my friends,then i started praying and ministering to two of my friends...Again i realise why God didn't send anyone because he wanted me to minister to two of my friends...

Just like that Esplosion Camp was going to end,but before it ended me and my friends were in the mess hall and were like playing a game where who lost had to drink a cup of many disgusting things added into it...Haha and i had to drink it,cause i lost,it taste horrible...Then i went back...Then i went back to the mess hall to get water,but ended up talking to a group of youths from Kulai and some from Singapore...And i got to say their Awesome people...Made friends with them haha,it was really Awesome getting to know them...Then after that,something happen,which i won't go into detail but thank God everything was okay in the ened...

On the last day,i was pretty much quite sad cause ESP was going to be over,but i was i glad of all the things i had experience in this camp,all the friends i made,and old friends that have been renewed,i really enjoyed this camp and hope that next year ESP camp would come quickly,so NEXT YEAR ESP CAMP FASTER COME~!!!!!!! I'M WAITING FOR YOU~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats pretty much my story of the camp,haha,take Care~!

Time is flying by so fast~!

Time is pasting by so fast~! I'm now 17,i can't believe it LOL.Able to drive car ady~! And going to be 18 next year~! What the cow~! Realising i'm very old already T.T..As i examine all my friends,those who have been with me since young,wow have we all grown up so much.Can't believe it..Moreoever
especially those who are younger then me,i used to remember they used to be smaller and shorter then me,but gosh~! They have all grown up so fast~! Both outwardly and inwardly LOL..Can't believe it,time has past so quickly,and as i compare myself to them,i ask myself,what was i doing when i was their age? One simple answer,i was like crap when i was 13,14 and early 15...XD

But i have been bless with something,that is looking younger then my own age.To the majority of people,they will think i'm 14 or 15 although i'm already 17.Well,in a way i guess this is a blessing cause i look younger,but it also has it flaws lol...Sometimes when i'm out shopping,the aunties or uncles would call me,eh Xiao Di,which literally means small boy..=.=!!! or my friends would look at me as a kid although to some of them i'm older than them~!..Ohwell,WHO CARES?!!!!

Okay,back to the point lah,enought of crappy talk,XD.My point is,time has seriously past by so fast,sooner or later i will have to help fetch my friends younger then me around,take care of them,start doing all the grown up stuff.To be honest,i feel as if i'm not ready lol,but i guess maybe it's time for me to break out of this shell,and step into this real world,no longer under the protection of my mum or continue living in my own happy world but stepping out and doing things for myself..

Time has past so much,and it will continue to past by as fast as the wind.Time to grow up,not literally become a moody serious type of person but serious in my thinking...To all those who are still young,enjoy your life lol,you still have your entire adolsense and future ahead of you~!

Steambot~!

Wah,went steambot with my Perling 2 friends just now.It was really great to catch up with them again.Really great.I'm glad that they didn't really change that much,their still the same friends i know,and thats a great thing~!

But,i got to say,it was quite expensive lol,RM18.80 from my pocket got burn away~!....Well,the fellowship matters right?XD While we were eating half way,a begger came and beg some money from us.I got to say,i was totally felt with pity for him lol.Kesian begitu dia..My mood totally changed so much so,and he was staring at the food,i felt so sorry and sad for him.I wanted to do something but i couldn't muster up the courage to do something to help him.Felt kind of helpless that i couldn't do something to help him..Next time when i see i must help lol,even though i'm scard but i must force myself~!
This really pushed me lol,Hey i need to study hard for my muture lol,i need to study hard so that my family and I can have a good life in the future...I hope that i can help them the next time i meet a begger...

Well,after we finished,i was completely full lol,i don't know much my waist line had increased,i need to exercise tomorrow~! And in the end,we ate ice cream,yummy yummy ice cream~! Ah~! Just talking about me just made my hungry,ICE CREAM~! KFC~! okay,i will control myself,XD I was drinking a cup of 100plus,and well,i couldn't finish,so i poured it into the soap(hey no one is going to drink form it ady right? since we're all full?) I went to take some other drink,and one of my friend drank the soap,and my other friends were like laughting out loud,and you know what? He said that it was nice?It was sweet? And i told him theres 100plus in it then his face straight away turn sour LOL,Funny Sial~!
Then my friends were like pouring their drinks,sambal,chili all sort of stuff into the soap. Hahax,well boys will be boys eh? Really had a great time,i hope get to go out often..XD Esp is coming,can't wait for it~! And for the Youth Christmas Party,and yes,i am acting as a girl in the drama,SO DON'T MISS IT~! IT WILL BE VERY LAME~! Okay,got to go now,take care and God Bless~! =D

Immature?

I have often been called or looked at as immature and to the eyes of many of my friends,i am immature.But to be honest,in what sense am i immature? I know,i have to be mature inorder to be a leader but in what way? I know,there is a fine line between play and work,and i feel that after the camp yesterday,i did follow by that rule,but in normal conversations,do i have to be mature?I know the way i talk and act is wild at times,but is this wrong? I am often judge by people as immature and thats why people think i'm not good enought for doing this or that..To be honest,i am sick of people judging me.....(Pleasee stop Judging me)

I know,at many times i act like a clown,doing lame and stupid things.But to be honest,i have this thing in my heart,to behave like this so i can make those around me laught and be happy.I always want this to heppen,willingly sacrificing my own pride so that others will laught and be happy.....But many times i am misunderstood,people think of me as immature and so on.But thats not my motive? Because of this,people think differently of me,think i'm immature and most of all look down on my capabilities and myself....

But,i'm really confuse,what is immature?The way i act and behave immature? I don't want people to think as me as a immature person,but a mature person,but with this personality God has given to me,what can i do? In what way must i be mature? In prayer?worship?God's word? I know in this sense i have to be mature, and also implies for work,but what about normaly?

I'm okay,but i'm just abit confuse....