Reflections & Resolutions..

Hey ya! Well, it's 2012 already! Yet another year has passed ushering another brand New Year!

Before i make other posts of this year, i guess it's important first to do some Reflections of 2011.

2011 truly has been a year much many New Things, Learning & Experience which i guess have never learnt so much in one Year as in 2011.

YMI~!

I remembered starting the Year with YMI or Youth Mission Initiative. It was truly a Great experience, a One Month long Mission trip in Kluang and in Sentul Kuala Lumpur. Experience so much, we were sent to a School for Refugees where we helped out there. It was truly a Great eye opener being able to see Life in the eyes of others, being away from home being independent and working hard labour, yup you heard it hard labour! And making many Awesome Friends in the process.

Volunteer Work~!

Well, after YMI while waiting for my SPM results, i remembered signing up to do volunteer work at Calvary Victory Center which is basically like a school for children with Autism. True enough, this was another Great eye opener. I mean, working, helping & teaching children whom are Special. I bet not many people actually have this experience working with children with Austism, and true enough its an experience i'm proud to bear. Learnt that you know we are really actually so Blessed. Be CONTENT & HAPPY with your Life. What i learnt, even these Children can be so Joyous & Happy even with their disabilities, why not us? But honestly, at many times even i find myself biting on the very experience & words i said.

College Life~!

During that entire time leading up to obtaining my spm results, One Major Theme always ringing through my mind was whats next with my Education? What am i going to study where am i going to study? I found myself thinking over & over again over the same very questions which haunted me so much.

I had many different plans, paths & places which i made for my studies, but you know what? I don't know, all my plans didn't really materialize and at the end of it all, i ended up in TARC Johor Branch.

Many times i'm asked, what in the World are you doing in TARC Beven? And why are you taking Public Relations? Because true enough TARC nor Public Relations wasn't what i've plan or dream of taking. Honestly, it was almost at the bottom of the lists of studies and colleges to go to~!

And yet, i find myself ending up here in TARC studying PR. You know, sometimes the very Dreams we have or Desire may not necessarily materialize. Alright even though its true it may HURT not being able to achieve your Dreams, but hey? If one Dream is far out of reach why not Find another Dream instead? And yes, i have found another Dream. To study until i end up in England & graduate with a Masters. Yup, perhaps it's a bit far fetch, but hey Aim for the Skies right? =P

Singapore~!

Another thing which happened this year is actually learning to be able to travel to & around Singapore. Before 2011, i was a complete IDIOT in going to Singapore. I totally did not know the routes and ways to travel to Singapore even though i live in Johor Bahru which is like so NEAR to Singapore. But because of friends and in the name of Love, yeaa i learnt how to travel to Singapore and yup, now i can confidently travel to singapore, okay not EVERYWHERE lah but can traveeel.. =P

Love~!

And the last, perhaps will be Love. Ah i bet your eyes must be opened wide now & adjusting your seat in the process. LOVE~! I'm sure if you know me, yea you'll be like sooo excited to read this now. haha.

Well, yea i guess i can't deny that another major theme of 2011 was about Love. Fell in Love and actually learnt so much from it. Really, i guess this is the first time i'm actually that serious, i mean actually really trying to woo a girl. WOAH another new experience! But yea, these past few months has really been something. Learnt like how to write songs, fold origami, travel and also learning to take Risks.

Well, i'm still single though, lol~! Maybe ain't good enough for her, perhaps she deserves someone better than me? I don't know. Find myself in a crossroad of Holding on to something which seems to distant now or Letting go & moving on with Life.

Love can be so Sweet & Wonderful but yet also very Painful & Hurtful.

But i guess whats important is this, it ain't about Finding the Right person, but Becoming the Right Person.

Resolutions~!

Well, my resolutions for 2012 would firstly be, being the strong Christian i used to be. Yup, not as Strong nor Holy as a Christian i used to be honestly, hopefully can rebuild back that Strong Christian Beven i used to me. Next, will also be doing well in my studies, maintaing a CGPA of 3.8 and above. Yuuup and also to continue to revive back the Christian Fellowship here in TARC. Lastly, yea hopefully will find my companion this year. That's all i guess.

Happy Blessed New Year Everyone~! (:

TARC Christmas Celebration

Well, we're finally going to have our Christmas Celebration here in TARC (Johor Branch) organize by our own Christian Fellowship. Can't wait for it! I've been dreaming and envisioning of this day since first entering college, to plan a Christmas Celebration event for TARCIANS here in our campus. And finally it's coming true!

We started planning about two weeks ago, we're gonna have games, worship, performances, gift exchanges, fellowship & FUN~!
You know, our Christian Fellowship here in our Campus has been DEAD for many years. And now, this year we're slowly reviving it. Upon coming into college, it has always been my dream and vision to revive the CF here.

In the beginning, finding fellow Christians here is really like finding needles in a haystack! It was really that hard! It's not like very one has big Sign Boards hanging over their heads saying, CHRISTIAN HERE~! It was truly a Challenge. In the beginning, there was only four of us, and now it was grown to Twelve! Yup! Well, maybe to you it may not be a VERY big number, but for us here it really is. We now have a small band, only lacking of a Keyboardist but we have many TALENTED people!

We have a COOL BeatBoxer name Stanza~! His totally AWESOME with beatboxing man! We have an Awesome Singer name Sam~! Great musicians like Chih Jun & Jason~! And a Groovy Dancer name Hong Chin! Awesome IT Technician Wei Long, a Good Christian leader Jonathan, helpers like Daniel & Dickson. We've all been working together for this event which we will have pretty soon. And many others!

I am proud of our acomplishments so far even though we only started joining together not too long. Simply hoping & praying everything will go Awesomely well later.
God please help us to do our Best & also to be able to bring about the TRUE meaning of Christmas to all our Friends. Bless us Lord~! AMEN!

Priorities...

Priorities. Sometime ago i've read this somewhere before. It says, life is is like a container. Not too sure whether you've heard of it before and the things in life we fill in it refers to the things we treasure in life.

If we put the bigger things in the container first, lets say rocks in it it takes space, but there are spaces left. But there are still room for more things inside like placing marbles, pebbles and lastly sand to make that container full. However, if we place the sand first, the smaller things first, there won't be room for any other things.


Recently, honestly life has been pretty rough to me. Love, Responsibilities, Accountability, Character & Studies has really been a big bugger to me.

Worst part is, got back my Public Relation Test paper today. Oh man, did so badly for it. I was totally shocked at my results. How could i have done so badly? What went wrong? I studied for it and yet huh? Disappointment i am no doubt about it. But what can i do but to accept me failure as a lesson? I am Happy to see my friends in class succeeding, try to put on a smile but deep down, disappointment grips.

Back to priorities. Have to fix my priorities right, and do what is right to not disappointment myself and the people around me whom really love & cares for me. Bulk up Beven. Jiayou...

City~!

Ah yes, the city. Oh how i wish to be in the City right now. Just, feel like wanting to get out of the house, and treading around a CITY~!

Recently, been walking around and vising Singapore, and yea, ahhhh how i would like to go back there~! Yea the City! Or even Kuala Lumpur for that matter of fact.. Well i'm not complaining nor whining. Studying in TARC here in Segamat, well has its perks and also cons.

It's very peaceful for one, not much distraction where you can really concentrate on your studies. I mean, common it's like a Dead town here, the usual place you can go if you want to hang out is, err Local Cyber Cafes, Karoke and Mac Donalds. Yea, i guess that's about it. Your best friend are your Friends. Oh, without them it's one BORING Life here.

Staying back for the weekends here is just simply, BORING. Ahhh, not much to do. Well, at least going out for Futsal later, that'll be cool. But yea, i'm sooo going to have a City Life after i graduate from my Diploma here in Segamat. Degree, or even Masters for that of fact MUST be done in a City. Haha..

I guess, in a way its a good thing cause i'm able to experience the BEST of two types of world. One, Serene, peaceful & Boring life, another with the hussle & bussle of a city Life rushing here and there with Entertainment galore!

You know, sometimes i still ask myself, what in the World am i doing here in TARC Segamat? LOL! I could be in Singapore Poly or some College in KL. Well, sometimes i get confuse with this too. But i mean, i know larh God has a plan for everything.

Ecclesiastes 3:1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.

God has His ways, his purpose & his plans.

1 Corinthians 2:9 However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him...

Well, at least i'm going back JB the next coming weekend and going to Singapore! Yea! To visit a Dear Friend of mine which i can't wait, *cough cough* haha, and also to visit Heart of God church and being in a City~! Can't wait lah! Seriously can't! Patience Beven patience.

Ohya and p.s i'm sooo going to work in Singapore in the future. Just have to wait it out here in TARC Segamat and finish my studies, cannot cannot cannot give up. Must fight till the end, even though how Boring it is here.

Jiayou lah! =)

Twitter~!

Ahh yes Twitter. Recently, just started using twitter and yea, well i'm in love with it~! Even though, its like a simpler version of facebook, but the best thing i love about twitter is that i'm able to write anything i want on it~! Because, i only have friends in Twitter whom i know and well, can trust. In facebook, there's like so many people! And, don't feel as comfortable to share personal things about my life. So yea, Twitter has come and don't think it'll leave anytime soon.

It's a place to vent out what i want to say, but can't in Facebook. Awesome...=)

A start of something New?

Well, i have no idea where this will lead me. I have to admit that this is really something, it's really something that i don't think i'm willing to let Go off just like that. I just hope & pray that this will work out, really i do hope this does. Hope i'm not also being a fool once again. I've been a fool many times, and i hope i'm not gonna be one Again.

God Help Me, Lead & Direct Me...

Dancing...

Ahhhh, Dancing.. Recently started to learn dancing and yea, after so much procrastination and dreaming, i'm finally on my way to be a dancer. It feels Great dancing, i mean i love it~! Love moving to the beat of the music and at the same time learning new steps and stunts to add on to your arsenal of moves to do while dancing. AWESOME~! And besides, i mean it's a GREAT FORM of Exercise. Really, you use your entire Body while Dancing. And yea, i'm basically feeling the burn in my muscles now, ahhhh.. Tired tired tired now...

Beginning to learn to dance, reminds me of when i first started learning Guitar too. It wasn't easy in the beginning, the time, effort and pain your have to go through. But in the end of it all, it's all worth it... Well, will keep practicing and do my best~!

Well besides dancing, there's another thing. I mean, even though i've started learning dancing, i have some friends. Their like so skeptical when they heard i'm actually learning to dance. I mean, i'm disappointment with their responses, it's like their teasing and looking down on you.. And i'm like, common we're friends right? We've spent so much time together going through ups and downs, the least you can do is Support & Encourage your buddy when he's pursuing something he Loves. Not tease, look down nor discourage them. That ain't the way man, that ain't what REAL friends should do...

Have to get over this and just ignore their remarks or discouragements. This will NOT hinder me to pursue my Dream~!... Jiayou~!

Being a Leader...

You know, ever since coming to college i've or i believe God has been thrusting me into many leadership roles. I mean, i'm place in positions where i have to lead, to decide, to plan and to determine. I mean, its true, it's a good right? Being able to lead & learn at the same time to be an even better leader.

But at times, honestly it can get so tiring & hard. Being a Good Leader ain't an easy thing. It ain't. Sometimes, the people whom you lead, can expect so much from you. As if your a God. And when you don't meet up to their expectation, or in the process screw up, well here comes all the arrows. Complaints & blunt attacks which, well at times can really be hurtful or depressing.

Honestly, before this i never thought of myself as a leader. I've always look at myself as a worker, who takes orders from people and obediently just follow. However, even though i was bless before to have various opportunity to lead, but i mean yea i never looked at myself as a Strong Leader on which people can really rely & depend on. Honestly, i know my faults. I'm indecisive at times, i stall in making decisions, i worry too much and think too much. With that said, why would anyone follow me or let me lead them? There are many Leaders out there whom are better than myself.

But even with all my faults, yet God has choose me. Why? God choose me to lead my PR Class. Why? God choose me to lead the events in my class Why? And now God is choosing me to Lead Christian Fellowship in my College. Why? Why? Sometimes, i ask myself & God this questions. Even with all my faults yet God choose me.

I guess its like how God choose Moses in the bible huh? Even with all his faults, yet God choose him to lead His people. I'm not saying i'm Moses, where i'm totally not. But i can relate to how Moses felt. Why me of all the other people?

They say Leaders are Made. Maybe that's what God is doing now? I've been stretch to my limits lately, Plannings, organizing, directing, solving problems & making decisions. Having so much responsibilities on my shoulders. Honestly, it's tiring. But, true enough from my heart, i'm enjoying all i'm experiencing now even the all the challenges which comes my way in my Heart. I look at myself, woah Beven. I can't believe it. Your actually looked to as a Leader. People actually depend and follow you. Woah, seriously? Even i find myself hard to believe it.

I just pray & hope i'll be able to continue to lead with wisdom, courage & patience and become a better leader to not disappoint God nor the people God has given me to Shepherd.

God, help me to Lead the people which you've given me to Shepherd with Love, Patience & Wisdom. Amen...

Busy'ness

Oh noo.. Recently, have soooo many things to do that it has pile up the a big extent. Gosh, deprived of sleep recently and with tons of things to do. Drama, assignment, presentation, rehearsals study...Gaaah.

God sustain me through this period...

Lost~!

Well, i'm basically here to blog or to write about a particular incident where by which I actually got LOST in a mountain. Yup, you heard it i literally got LOST in the Jungle on a Mountain which is Gunung Lambak. It happened well about three weeks ago. And yea, why am i blogging it only now? Well, i would say i was kinda lazy to blog about it till now~! Haha. So here is my story and experience by being LOST in the Jungle, my experiences, struggles, fears, hope and lesson. xD

Well, it started first as a simple hike up Gunung Lambak planned by a church. So well, i was free that time so well tagged along. Well when we arrived at the foot of the mount, boy were we excited. Like kids with ice cream. haha LOL... And i mean, it wasn't my first time climbing up the mount, this would be my second, so i thought, ahhhh second time no big deal.

My friends were saying stuff like, ahh i'll race you to the Top! This is easy lah! And they were betting around. But boy oh boy,were they gonna regret what they said.

And so we began our journey. Or slow tedious hike up the mount wasn't easy as the path wasn't straight, well it was only for the very beginning. After that, it was a real tedious hike up. I stopped quite a number of times to for big grasp of air. And thought man, i should have trained more before hiking up. And so we climbed and climbed up the mount. Encouraging each other along the way and also competing at the same time. Cause well, Boys will be Boys lah haha. Thank God, all of us managed to reach the Top. And boy oh boy, that feeling of Euphoria you get after shedding all your sweat, effort and work and finally accomplishing is simply Awesome.

So at the top, we rested, took pictures and simply marvelled at the wonderful scenery that behold in front of us as you can see as the first picture at the Top. But trust me, it looks soo MUCH better in real life.

Well, then friend said we should be getting down soon. But, we had to go to the toilet. And yea, where else could you go to the toilet then in the Forest? I mean the Forest is your Toilet man. haha.. So, then we went exploring around the peak of the mount and found a mini toilet i would say. I mean, someone must have dug a hole and place a stool there. So yeaa, my friends took turns pissing there while i just piss at the trees. *OKAAAY, NOT IMPORTANT INFORMATION LOL!!! =.=" *...

Anyways, after that my friends saw a path. They started saying that they took this path before, but honestly it looked very creepy with hedges of branches covering the path and it seemed as if no one had took the path in a long long time. Well, but they kept insisting that they took this path before and it was a short cut. Well, initially i didn't want to take that path, i mean common its like a death sentence lah. But well, i thought of the thrill & adventure and well, even if we die we die as Brothers, which i regretted saying, =.=". So, all of us began our track down that uncertain path. Much like in Life huh? When we take an uncertain path and have no idea where it'll lead us. So i just followed them as they lead us

As we hiked down, that path slowly disappeared and gave way to even denser hedges of branches, trees and leaves. I mean, you could barely see where your going. But it was thrilling it really felt as if your own a big adventure. My friends in front kept saying, oh we see a path in front! We see a rope in front! But you know what, there wasn't a path nor rope in sight =.=". But we kept on going.

Then a friend said, well since we've already tracked down to this point, lets just continue down cause we'll bound out to end up at the bottom of the mount. So we agreed and continued on.

The path only kept getting worst and worst. Until a point where we just stopped. Looked around, and admitted, alright "We're Lost". We're seriously LOST in a Jungle. By then, morale was at its steepest. To add on to the bad news, we finished all our rations of water. We were all tired, thirsty, dehydrated, devastated and frustrated. Moreover, the soil on which we stepped on wasn't hard soil. It was soft and muddy. We practically had to use our entire body grabbing branches and trees for support. The condition was terrible.

To make things worst, i got poked by a branch in my eye which hurt badly, *OUCH* and my Little Brother, * Ahem ahem, you know a Guys Best FRIEND cough cough* got kicked by my friend accidentally. And boy, it hurt like mad. Imagine always watching in the movies where the bad guy gets kicked in the nuts? And ever wondered how it felt? I'll tell you its NASTY...

We continued on tracking down until a point we said, alright we have to stop! We're not going anywhere. And so we decided to track all the way back up. And boy was it tiring and tedious tracking all the way up. I mean, i was literally exhausted. Try hiking for about 3 hours? Yeaa.. I mean, i was filled with anguish and devastation until a point where i actually thought, am i going to DIE?

I started thinking about Life and thought there's still so much i haven't done yet. This can't be the end, can it? I don't want to perish here. There's still so much to do and to be accomplish. God i don't want to Die here. I made a desperate prayer to God begging Him to spare us and allow us to survive through this ordeal.

And so we continued on hiking, battling our fatigue and growing anguish. And true enough, i've never experience anything like this before. It was one big Adventure. We continued battling up the Hill, overcoming the odds and finally, thankfully we arrived at the top once again.

I don't know how to express the feeling. I was so so Happy that we reached salvation. There was an uncle & auntie at the top and gave us some water to drink and boy, Water Never Tasted that GOOD. Then the uncle & auntie guided us down the mount, even though we were exhausted but at least we're on the right path. And after 4 grueling hours of hiking, we finally arrived back down the mount. My legs were shaking but felt so Happy that we're basically saved.

I guess, this ordeal has thought me this in Life. Life, is really fragile. You won't know when your very existence might just end like that. As i was battling the mount, i thought of all the things i regretted not doing and all my weaknesses and things which i haven't accomplish. I thought about how i wasn't Brave enough in many instances in facing Life's struggle where many times i'll just bail out and escape. It thought me, to really face up to your challenges & be Brave. Live your Life with no Regrets.

And of course, Love God. Cause i know even as i was battling the mount, God was helping me all the way.

So that's my story, and yes i know its LONG. Sorry to strain your eyes though. Shalom & Take Care Everyone. =)

Guitar...

Well, its been almost more than a week now since i'v last lay hands on my Guitar, and boy oh boy how i am missing it soo much now... How i wish to hold it in my arms and play it. Gosh... Alright, i'll be honest, have been kinda lazy brushing up my Guitar when i had my Guitar with me all the while especially during my semester break. But like when you need something so much, and realize its not with you while in the back of your mind, knowing you had it all along before, it mean it really Stinks. Its like not giving the appreciation as it deserves only to regret when its gone. I guess at many times in life, that's how its like huh? We'll only start appreciating something or someone for that matter of fact only when its gone huh? I guess its a mistake, i've been making all to commonly. And yes, its repercussion well just Stinks...

Lord Help me to Appreciate the things in Life you've Bless me more...

Sometimes...

Recently i've read this qoute, it says, Sometimes God doesn't give us what we want, not because we don't deserve it, but because we deserve Better. I mean, in some ways i agree to it. Have always been longing for something, but i don't know why, up till now the answer from God has always been no no no no. Sometimes it really can get tiring, or frustrating. But i guess, God knows whats Best huh? God knows what is truly Best for us and desires to give us the Best. Why? Because God Loves us more than we can ever understand. Uh huh.. Haaaaaaaa, guess need to continue to have Faith & Trust in God.

Lord help me to learn to have more Faith & Trust in your Lord. To have patience in you for you have your own perfect timing Lord...

It really Stinks...

You know, it stinks to be sick. I mean, who loves being sick? Okay lah for those whom are REALLY Desperate to get Leaves, getting sick is your Golden Ticket. But for us, i mean who loves being sick? It affects you so much, hinders you from obtaining your potential, pulls & drags you down. Man oh man how i HATE being sick now.

Previously about 2 weeks ago i went mountain climbing. And i got those small little scratches around my arms and legs thanks to being Lost in the Mountain that is, =.=". But everything was fine. After about a week, i don't know why, this small cuts started swelling up until an extent it looked as if i contracted some disease or something. It was dead serious. I went to see two GP doctors and both prescribe their medicine, but there was only slow recovery. And up till today i went to a third doctor, a skin specialist which concludes the total to three Docs. And now, the Doc has given me Steroids, yeaaaa STEROIDS my goodness its some heavy dope man.

The worst part of all these is being absent from College. Gosh, have to be absent for One week of college and i hate it so much. I've been missing out on so many things classes, assignments, tutorials and my class needs me to lead them for a coming event. But i'm stuck here at home *RESTING*. Gosh, i'm frustrated & disappointed. I don't really know why this Skin Infection have to occur on me? I mean i wasn't the only one that got lost in the mountain, and yet i'm the only one with this problem now. The worst is the worry you create on your Mum and those you love and the Money spent on medications. Gaaah. Well, look on the bright side, at least i didn't end up in a hospital bed.

It really stinks, forcefully having to stay at home like a prisoner, feeling helpless and knowing at the back of your mind where you have so much things to be done. It really really stinks. Hope i recover soon...

Blessed 19th Birthday!

Well Happy Birthday to me! Haha well yesterday, which was the 21st of September was my birthday. It was Awesome!

Birthdays only happens once a year and is a special day because it's the day we're born into this world. True enough, Birthdays has spread to every country in the world and is an accepted culture in everybody as a day of joyous celebration of the person birth.

Yup, that's a formal definition lah, haha. Well, yesterday, i celebrated my 19th birthday with my friends over here in TARC. And true enough, had a Happy & Merry day. Although the planning was kinda last minute, but Thank God everything went quite smoothly.

I'm so thankful that so many of my friends were more then willingly to celebrate with me! 18 of them to be exact and we had 4 cars for transportation! Woah! Really, am grateful to them. Had a very fun night and day.

It's been a long time since i celebrated my birthday with so many friends, and i'm more than thrilled!

Well, so you must be thinking what are my wishes? Haha. First, i wished that i'll become a Better Person. To change even more. =) Second, that all my friends here in TARC will do well in their studies and have a Happy & Merry Life all together. Third, well that's a secret. Haha..

Well, i guess that's about it. Till next time! Chaoz! =)

Progress soo faaaaaaar...

Hey everyone! Woah it's been a long time since i last posted anything here. And boy oh boy a lot has happened these past months that i don't know where to start! Well, firstly i guess i'm gonna talk a bit about my first semester. Yes, i've FINISHED my 1ST semester in TARC College already! And boy oh boy a lot has happened during just One semester which has taught and also allow me to experience so many things.

Well, for one i'm thankful because i was able to make many friends here. We had many happy times where we would literally laugh our butts off but also times where would bring us to our utmost low. Experience a lot of those, DRAMAS i would say in college amongst friends which i guess has in a way helped me to grow more in maturity in friendships and how to handle problems them. Don't want to elaborate cause well the past is the past ain't it? No point crying over spilt milk! Haha...

Other than that, college life has been busy yet also fun i would say. We have tons of assignments here to complete not the mention tutorials but still manage to find time to enjoy too. Haha...

Well, that's one short description of College life bah.. Now on to my Semester Break Holidays! Woohoo! The duration of my break was well about 3 weeks and i can't believe that it is already over! Gaah so fast! Well, but it was truly one meaningful & enjoyable holiday! Truly.

Went out with many friends yamchaing and basically catching up with them, experience new things, did volunteer work in Calvary Victory Center which is basically a school for children with autism, went to singapore, went to kluang for an outing and really did tons of catching up with many of my friends which was awesome. Truly an awesome holiday! Well nothing much else to write i guess. See ya next time!

College Life...

Well,my College Life has finally started...After a Week of Orientation by the College,my studies are finally going to start tomorrow...

This past week has been Fun,Challenging and also Tiring.But i am thankful that so far,everything has been working out smoothly and well.

I've been walking around and exploring the Campus of my College,and i got to say,its nice maan...Its what i had always dreamed & wished to have in a College...A big Campus ground,many Trees and plants around,Birds Chipping away,a complete collection of Sport Complex Ranging from a Swimming Pool to Tennis,Squash and others...Its simply nice.Quiet & Conducive for studies...But there are too,its con's i would say...One,the Hostels aren't actually in the Campus but are outside,so we have to rent rooms outside the campus and take buses there everyday...Well,with this,there are its pro's and cons too lah,some would say its a pros and others a con..Anyways besides that my College is located in Segamat.Well,its kind of a Boring town actually.It doesn't have any shopping malls nor movie theater nor places where we can really hang out...But i would say,its alright bah,thats where your friends come in,to spend time with them,for example going out for dinner and also eating Roti Canai's at Makmak Shops at Night Fellowshipping...Your Friends,ARE your Entertainment...

Anyways now on to the student population...After being through Orientation,realize that many of the people there,aren't really of English Add...What i mean is,they don't really use English as their Main Medium of Communication...Before entering TARC i was Skeptic & Worried cause i've heard that Many TARCIAN's don't really speak English & to make things worst, i am Banana(Meaning i'm more towards English than Mandarin)...But i thank God so much that after a week,i made many Good Friends...Their really Good people...Even though they don't really Speak Fluent English,but you know what now? Who Cares? Atlease their Good People...

But one of the Awesome thing is this,even though many of my friends aren't English Add,but they make the effort to try to Speak & use English...I myself am sometimes surprise that they'll sometimes approach me and start speaking to me in English even though it's not Easy for them...Thats the Awesome thing about it,and they also accept me,a Banana for who i am.I don't feel in any way Segregated nor Neglected,i am one of them,a fellow TARCIAN...With this,i mean i guess i see maybe theres a Purpose to why i am here...Maybe its to help Improve the Level of English of my Friends and fellow TARCIANS here? Who knows but God? But i Will try my Best to do that ,help improve the level of English in my Friends and TARCIANS...

Well,so far soo good..I Pray & Hope that i'll continue to Remain Strong and finish my studies here and never give up...

A Friend once told me,Don't Go Through Life,but Grow Through Life...

With this,i'll end with a quote from my Friend,

You may not know why you're placed there, but one day, God will reveal His great plans for you...
Its like pieces of a puzzle...
You'll get one piece per day..
And at the end of the day..
You'll get all the pieces..
And you'll see the whole picture of it...
And of corse, the person manipulating the puzzle is God..

A New Chapter...

Well soon,a New Chapter in Life will being for me...A new phase in Life,which is College Life...

After being a baby,toddler,child,adolescent and now,Young Adult i think? Haha,waaah...And here i am,going to finally begin a new Story in my Life,going to experience,learn and receive new things in Life...

Well,so here i am going to TARC which is Tunku Abdul Rahman College.Honestly,it wasn't really my first voice.These past months after my SPM has seen me going through many Different Plans & Decisions in Life.

Have been Thinking & Planning about my Future,even going through all the possible routes for my future,researching about all the courses and almost all the Universities and Colleges in Malaysia,even Singapore...

Even though,at first,Public Relations wasn't really the course i had in mind...I was thinking of going back into Science,but when the time came ever closer to make my decision in life,i really started to Question myself,Am i Willing to go Back and Study Science? Even though its True that i had enjoyed studying Biology,but the same can't be said for all the other Science subjects like Chemy,Phy and even Maths..

Am i really Willing to go back? I remembered myself studying really really extremely hard,even forsaking soo many activities and things in the months prior to my SPM exam days...H

However during the actual days of the exam,when i did the Science papers,i realize,after all my studying,why is it that u am still so Blur & Confuse about the answers? And i remembered telling my mum after those Science Papers,i would never want to go back in Science...

And i asked myself,is this Really What i Want? Or is it the Image i want to maintain in others? In me Being all soo SMART going to study SCIENCE?
To add on,even though my SPM Science results came out,okaaay,especially Add Maths which miraculously i got a C+ in and in Bio A-,Chemy B,Phy B,Maths A,but i know,this is just Words and Grades...The REAL thing comes in HOW you actually manage to study and in your NORMAL exams,not just SPM...But to also view in your NORMAL exams in how you cope with it,and trust me,except for Bio,barely survived..

And i was in a situation,where i was seriously Confuse,and finally,made my Decision to Take Public Relations...Why?

I remembered what my Add Maths teacher said before,and she knows my studies well...She said i am strong in my Language,particularly in my English and should go for courses like Law or Mass Com,as that is where my full advantage can be use.However if i were to go back for Science,it most definitely would not be easy for me...

And with that and many others,made up my mind...Well,i'm hoping that everything will turn out well for my life and the paths which i am going to take...I guess what i need now is to have Faith and Trust and Believe in God that everything will turn out well and fine...And not to worry about this and that,but Faith in God...

Hoping Life will turn out well....

Last Night,Till Next Time!

Well,this is my Last Night here in JB,before i'll be away for quite awhile...Yuuup...I am going to Miss this Beautiful & Wonderful House of Mine...Really Going to Miss it...And also to my Friends in JB,gonna miss you too!!! A LOT! Well,i guess this is the process of Growing up huh? Now leaving..Haah..I Hope & Pray everything turns out Well...

Well,went out with two of my friends just now for some fellowship...Got to say,it was really Good,getting to go out with them after such a long time and fellowshipping with them...Had a Great Time with them...Knew both of them through Cell Group,from being a normal Cell Group member with them,to becoming their ex Cell Group Leader...Good to spend some time with them and catch up...Yuuup!

Volunteer Work!

Well,it has already been two weeks since i've started my Volunteer Work in Calvary Victory Center...Anyways,for those of you who don't know what is Calvary Victory Center,it's basically a School for Children with Autism ranging from different age groups..And now,i can use the Short term for the school,which is,CVC...

Well,work over there has been good...Although at times,it can be tiring,but yet its fulfilling to be able to do something Good,rather than staying in the house and wasting your life Sleeping more then you should,watching tv and computer the whole day...

I rather enjoy helping and playing the Kids there.At times,they can really stretch your limit,and at other times,really warms your heart..Ohyah,i'm attached to the Young Kids there,around 5 to 10 years old...Yup!..

Also made many new friends amongst the teachers there and the Kids...

Even though my two weeks contract with God has already expired,but i am still going back there tomorrow to help out...Can't help but feel a part of me is attached there.Haha,yup...

It's getting late now,Nights everyone! Will upload some pictures,when i've taken more pictures and have time...Nights!

The Right Path?

One day,there was a Boy...This boy started work at a ship called,Life from a very young aged,He worked his way up through the ranks overcoming all the obstacles and trials in his life to finally becoming the Captain of the Ship...

He was entrusted with Freedom & independence.Finally,he could now steer his Ship to which every path he may wished...He had dreamed about this Day since the very first day working in the Ship,and finally,his chance came.

The Captain then started making many plans on the course and paths he should take for the Long Voyage ahead of him.

However,whenever he finished a plan,after carefully calculating and researching everything in that particular path,somehow the captain wasn't satisfied with it and was afraid of taking that path...And so,the captain continued on and on making more and more plans but all ending up in the same conclusion,Uncertainty...

The Captain got frustrated not knowing of what to do.He had spent a Long time waiting in the harbour planning,but soon,he has to set sail...Opportunities came and go,plans appeared,but failed...

Uncertainty continues to gripple the captain...Time is running short...

So what now,Captain?

Complications..

Don't know why,suddenly bumps or appearing on the Road now...Never expected things slowly pop out,hoping it will not effect my pathway,really am hoping so..Things are starting to get Complicated,Sigh,thought my path had already been cleared,now,almost back to Square One...Don't have much time left,hoping & praying things will turn out right & well...

College College!

Ah!!! I can't wait to go to College already and study! Being at home all this while can be very boring! Many of my friends have already went and studied,and i can't wait till its my turn! Ohwell,what to do,have to wait lol,like it has been said,Good Things come to those who wait...So wait wait wait,it will come sooner or later...

Well,besides that,i've just started volunteer working in Victory Center,its basically a school for children with Autism...It felt Great finally being able to get out of the house and really do something Meaningful and Fulfilling..Although,i was and still am Dead tired after working for a whole day,but yeaaaa,but Exposer & Experience...Looking forward for tomorrow! As will be going back to the Center to Help out!

Anyways,College college college! Aiks! Faster come come come!!!! For the mean time,will be working working working!!! =P Chaoz!!!

Whats next?

Just got back my SPM results today...Must say i am kind of disappointed with it.Expected to do better lah,but compared to many friends,i actually did alright already,cause it seemed as if last years SPM papers were harder,not only me,but can be seen through my friends too...Only a handful of them got Many A's,and those i thought would have gotten straight A's,did not...So in away,okay larh my results,not excellent,neither horrible,okay only...

But the important thing now is not to Cry over Spilled Milk,but to now DECIDE,What's Next?? Honestly,i'm not sure...Can't get into the University i want...Course wise? Still here and there...Pre-U studies? Where? When? Questions like this have been poping up in my mind lately...

I thought all my questions would have been answered after my Results,but it seem as if it is not...I know,the basic Christian thing to do is Pray and Read the Bible...But,yes i have been doing those two things for a Long time now,but wheres my Answer?

Have to make a decision soon...Please wish me All the Best bah...

A picture tells a thousand words...

They say a picture tells a thousand words,hmmmm,okay,before you continue on reading this post,may i ask that you take sometime and observe the Big Picture above...Try to observe it and think about the picture and its meaning...

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Okay done? Haha...Okay,so what did we see? Hmmm,the sun setting? The tides retreating,revealing many rocks,a boat stranded on the beach and yes a very Orange Blog...Haha...Yup,its correct! Lets dwell deeper now and don't worry,don't be afraid! It won't bite larh!

Okay,pay attention to that little boat...Its stranded on the beach,it can't continue on its journey into the ocean because the tide has retreated,meaning the water has retreated and theres no water.It also revealed many dangerous big rocks right? And the sun is setting,meaning it'll be dark soon and dangerous to venture out into the ocean...Moreover the little boat is tied up...So what now? The boat is stuck right? It doesn't have anywhere to go now,its simply Stuck there at that spot on the beach...

So whats my point?

Well,you know,sometimes in life,don't you think we're just like that little boat? Having nothing else to do,where to go,just being Stuck stuck stuck...I bet we've encountered situations like this before...When all we can see infront of us are just obstacles upon obstacles and being held back by our pass...Like that little boat in the picture...Held back by a rope and with plenty of obstacles infront of it...Stuck...I myself must admit,i am too stuck like that little boat...

But you know what? Even though,all may seem lost,with all those obstacles ahead,and with our past holding us back,there is still Hope...

Its true,that the little boat is stuck,but there is one thing that it can do,To Wait Patiently..Yes Wait...Because,as long as it can last through the night till the first light of day breaks through,the sun will rise once again and with that bringing the tide back...And what about the rope holding it back? Simple,by just letting it go by untying the knot that is holding it back...

Sometimes it just seems so helpless to struggle,to panick and to worry...Where the solution is sim ple,to calm down and wait patiently for God to intervene and for things to be made right...But its also said,how can things be done when we do nothing? Its also true,but when all seems hopeless? What else can we do than to just wait patiently for God...

Like that little boat,all it needed to do,was just to wait patiently,and with that,everything will turn out well for it...

This picture is something to me,and that is why,its up there,(And also its looks nice and romantic larh! Ahem ahem) anyways,but it also brings a deep meaning to the picture...That at times,we may be stuck in life,not knowing of where to go,but theres always a way out when we wait patiently for God to do his works...

Like this little boat,where i don't even know where in the World it is now...Maybe Langkawi? Hawaii? Thailand? India? LOL, Who knows?

Anyways,well these are my few hundred words of the picture...


Whats YOUR words of the picture?